i'm sick of this shit don't ask why

I need to blog:

GAHHH I'm so fucked up.

With my parents and my friends and school and work. Everything goes right for not even a week and then things fuck up. it's always been that way for me. I'm tired of losing people who mean so much to me and we're not friends anymore because of what other people say or do. gah its just pisses me off. I've cried more than I ever have probably today. If I had a bucket it would be full with tears. I'm not kidding. I am a mess and I don't have anything to do but cry and cry and cry. because the friends who are usually there for me are pissed at me. i'm just at the point where i'm like fuck it i'm gonna drop out of school and I'm just going to do nothing with my life. it would be a hell of a lot better than fucking life right now. i can't even type because im so upset and torn up. i feel like a family member died but worse.

fuck my life is all i got to say.
kill me now.