I'm hanging on another day, just to see what you will throw my way.

These past few days have been odd.


I'm not ready for school to start.
I feel like my life is being rushed.

There's so many deadlines for everything:
College
Work
School
Cheerleading
Spending time with friends/family

I can't do it all at once.
I feel like its going to be very stressful this year.


I'm not happy though and thats the one thing I'm missing. I'm just not how I used to be. Happy.

It kinda seems like people move in a different direction with everything.
Like, you talk to someone for a really long time and then all of a sudden that person doesn't talk to you as much anymore.
I hate it. I planned on going to so many places with my friends this summer and it didn't happen. Its really disappointed me now that I've thought about it.

Today: Cassie and me went to the Mexican Restaurant for lunch and our waitress wouldn't bring us any drinks so Cassie got up and went to go get her own water haha. Then I coached. And Daniel, Cassie, my mom, and me went to go eat at Fatz. Now I'm here at my grandmas. My mom told me today that we are more than likely going to trade her car tomorrow. I'm excited. I'm just blessed to have a mom like her. Most moms wouldn't trade their cars to get their kid a better car. I know I call my mom a bitch and things but she's really not. And it takes time to realize the good in people more than the bad. I learned shes just trying to watch out for me.

Quote of the day:

Jc: "and o yea i saw mrs. atkins at bi-lo."
Becca: "did she talk to you?"
Jc: "she was asking me questions and i just stared at her."
Becca: "are you serious?"
Jc: "yea lol she goes are u excited about school and i go yea and just stared and she goes ok..im gona go buy more food bye."
Becca:"hahahahahahahaha"
Jc: "she hates me so much u were her favorite in the class. but she hated the rest of us."