I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh, everyday of my laugh

my heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with.

Good Afternoon.

Golly bum its raining and storming so bad right now. It freaks me out. Storms scare the shit out of me.

So today and yesterday I babysat. It was interesting. Sorry Billie I never answered my phone or commented you back. I've been a busy bee. So HOPEFULLY I get that car today or tomorrow. It's frustrating me.

Ok well I'm gonna make this short cause I don't wanna get killed my a storm, so I'll tell about my days later.

Seems Like Some Things Just Aren't The Same.

Hello.

Today: Well I woke up and begged my mom to call Mrs.Shelley so I didn't have to work because I didn't feel good, but of course that didn't happen. So I got ready and went to the gym. I got kicked in the face and then the head today. And Daniel was laughing. I was about to kill the person who did it and the person who was laughing at me. Then Daniel and me went to Downtown Pizza and we saw Mrs. Bradley and talked to her and there were these old people and their granddaughters kept staring at us it was weird. Then we went to pick Cassie up from gymnastics and she like screamed at us because we ate without her, but we were hungry, we certainly not waiting on that chick, so she demanded us to take her to Downtown Pizza, so we did. Then I went home and went to sleep.

I'm really excited because I get to drive that car Thursday.

Well I guess I'm gonna go... I have to coach again.

Becca

Baby there’s something about you that I can hold on to

Saturday night: Mom, Dad, and me went to Papa's buffet. It was good. And then Marshall dropped Nathan off there, and we went to look at cars. I found this pretty jetta. I really want it. Maybe I'll get it. Then we went to Wal*Mart. Whoo what fun. Then we went to Sonic and got a milkshake. And then I went to meet Marshall and he gave me a nice little present. Then Cassie woke me up at 1:00 AM coming in the house.

Sunday: Ah. What an interesting day. With all the grandparents at church watching Cassie get baptized and Nana and Lina (step-grandma) arguing whose going to hug Cassie first. Ha. It's funny. Then Cassie, Nana, and Grandma, Mom, and me went out to eat. And then Cassie and me went out on the lake. And then Marshall, Jessica, Cassie, and me went out to eat. I drove me and Cassie and she kept yelling at me. Then we went to Wendy's to get a frosty and I parked where I could get out and no one was parked there and when we came out there were these old people parked beside me and I was pissed because I thought I would hit them. And then I took her to Ingles to buy her a candy bar and theres this really weird kid named Shane works there and everytime I'm in there he is and I go to a check out and he like magically shows up. It freaks me out. And then Cassie and me went home and watched Stick It.

Now: I don't feel good. So I'm just gonna like do nothing today. And probably not go to work tomorrow just for the hell of it. Because I get pissed off so much there.

Here are some pictures

Me and Cassie

dude i totally missed that

whoo its raining cats and dogs

dude I just got back from CVS and im so pissed.

Everytime I go in there and find eyeliner I like its never there anymore.
So my eyeliner ran out and I go back to CVS to get the SAME kind I bought there before and they didn't have it. I was so pissed it always happens to me

So I went to pay and I said "everytime i buy something i like and i come back to get the same kind yall never have it" and shes like "well we restock" and i go "well it pisses me off" and she just looked at me like i was crazy and she like i was a little girl that just committed a crime and she goes have a nice day and i was like yeah yeah yeah

i was so mad
i thought i would share my moment of maddness

okkk maybe my mommy and daddy will get me a car today =]

Moving at the speed of light into eternity

Wow I haven't wrote in this a lot lately. Sorry my bad

We have the baby today just like we do everyday. Its really annoying.

Wednesday: Babysat

Thursday: Babysat and Marshall and Jessica came over and we talked for like 3 hours in my room.

Friday: I went to pick Jackie up and we went to Burger King with Billie, Megan, and Ansley and then we went to Rite Aid and bought a lot of candy and then we went to the movies and their were like an ass load of people with us.

Jackie, me, Wendy, Carley, Jacob, Connor, Casey, Brandon, Brandon's brother, Kasey, Rachel Pope, Rachel Rabb, Billie, Ansley, and Kenny

Today: I may go look at cars yay

Tomorrow: A bunch of stuff that I shouldn't mention.

here's some pictures!

Wendy and Me

Me and Brandon

Connor and Brandon

Jackie and Me

You make me laugh, you make me cry, I don't know which side to buy.

Hello.

Gah I'm so freaking tired this morning. I literally got NO sleep at all last night. So I'm going to the doctor to talk to him about me not being able to sleep.

I just got back from coaching. It sucked...haha except when Daniel was like being all weird.

Today: I'm going to do the same thing I did yesterday because I don't feel good my throat still hurts. =[

Tomorrow: Babysitting =[
Thursday: Babysitting
Friday: BATMAN!

Ok I'm going to count how many people are going:
1.Billie
2.Connor
3.Casey
4.Ansley
5.Kenny
6.Wendy
7.Jacob
8.Will
9.Me
10. Jackie

I bet more will come along though
Elizabeth and me

HAPPY MOMENT

This day has sucked......................






BUT!!!!!!!!!

I talked to my mom and I was like dude mom if yoy get me a car this week I'll find a better job than coaching and babysitting and I'll give you half the money I make. and shes like give me the next two days and we'll see about it.

It may not happen but it may happen

AH IM EXCITED

Please God let this happen.

You Love Me You Like Her.

Good Morning.

I'm really tired this tired this morning. But I can't sleep as usual.

Last night was fun I guess. I ate a lot. When we got home, Cassie and me played Donkey Kong haha. She always wins though.



Today: I feel really sick. My throat is killing me. I'm fixing to order that shirt I want. I don't have a lot of money in my bank account right now though. I need a better job. I think I'm just going to have a movie day and just lay around the house. I just don't feel good. I think I'm sick because of my mom keeping it so freaking cold.
Having a menopausal mother sucks so bad. She keeps the house like a freaking meat locker. I'm like about to go sleep in the car.

Don't you hate it when random people just message you for no reason. All they do is brag about what they've done since you last talked them. It kinda annoys me so I just don't answer back half the time and then they just keep sending you the same ol' same ol' message. It makes me mad. Because I don't care what they've done.

Tuesday: Coaching.
Wednesday: Babysitting
Thursday: Babysitting
Friday: Going to see Batman with: Connor, Billie, Ansley, Wendy, Jackie, Casey, Kenny, and Jacob and maybe other people.

Well I'm going to go and watch TV I guess.

Becca

Forget About Everything And Runaway.

Hello Hello Hello!

What a lovely Sunday day!

Saturday: Worked at the fair. Whoo last time I have to do that.

Today: Cassie and me went to church. And then we ate Wendy's with Lina. Oh and Happy Birthday Nana!!

Tonight: Nana's Birthday Party

Monday: Nothingggg

BUT FRIDAY: NANANANANANANANANANANA BATMAN!!!!
with Billie and Ansley and Connor and Casey and anyone else who wants to go.

This past week has been hell for me. Except for going to the fair with the girls. That was fun. But other than that everything has gone wrong. And I'm about ready to runaway. Seriously. I can't keep living like this for two more years. I really want things to change. OR just move out and go somewhere else. That's what I would much rather do than anything else. Cassie told me that we were the strongest teenagers to be going through with whats happening right now. I don't think thats true, because a lot other teenagers are going through worse. But I admire that kid.


Things I Want/Need:

$13 of every shirt sold goes directly to our schools in Africa. Directly into changing lives.
{ordering Monday}










Thanks for all the comments.

xoxo
Becca

I Can Tell That You Can Tell That I Was Taking My Time

Ew I just got peed on by a baby.

Last night was so much fun ahh..

We went to Burger King and then we went to the fair. We rode like all the rides. I think Ansley and me were the biggest chickens though. Haha. Then Rachel and Billie met some boys. Ha Ansley and me just stood up there and watched them. Then they made us come down there and one dude looked at me and said "She's fine too." it was weird. I was like ew gross.

Today: I'm fixing to go to lunch with Olivia and then I might go to Eric's softball game. I really want to go. But so much is going on. We have to talk to the court today at 4:00 so I don't know whats going on tonight.

Tomorrow: Shit. I dread it. I have to work at the freaking fair. Who wants to do that?
Not me.

I swear I don’t know if I’m coming or going

Hello!

Umm it's kinda been a while since I wrote in this. Only two days though. =]

And Billie, I know your reading this, yes we will "skank that bitch" whatever that means. No wait, we'll get put into jail for that. haha.

Tuesday night was soooo weird. Coaching stresses me out.

Wednesday: Oh my goodness. It was my first day of babysitting those kids and Jennifer made me park in the garage and when I was leaving I hit her garage. And I got out to look and see if I did anything and the bumper of the car was almost dragging down to the road. And it left red paint on the garage. And the worst thing is I didn't tell them. I just left crying. And I went to Meeks Park and Will Gray called me and I was like Will oh my gosh what am I gonna do. And he was like thats the last thing I would worry about Becca. It's just paint. I thought my mom was going to kill me. This is the third time something like this has happened. So I called my mom and she was like ugh BECCA! and I was like IM SORRY!!! How many times can you say "I'm sorry" because I said it a lot. When I got home my dad came right out and looked at it and started laughing and he was like "Its ok. I've done worse. I'm not going to be mad at you because me and your mom have done something like this when we were young and we did get yelled at and we didn't like that." So that was nice. And then we went out to eat. Oh and my mom called Jennifer and told her what happened. And she was like ohhh its ok.

Today: Whoo. I babysat Autumn and Charles. Sweet kids. But their house smells like ass. We went to the pool and thats about it. Now I'm getting ready to hangout with Billie and Olivia. Hopefully Olivia. Yay I'm excited.

Ew so I met Marshall's new girlfriend. She looks just like Amy. It's weird. But I'm gonna give her a chance. How nice is that? I think pretty darn nice.

DP and BD BFF

"Your knee looks like it's touching my nuts."-Daniel

I love DP

Cassie and Abby

Mama telling me to drop some cash on the offering plate on Sunday.

Good Afternoon.

Dude I have got the biggest headache ever.

Today has been a good day. I really miss Marshall though. Maybe things will work out for the best.

Today: I coached this morning. And then went to Downtown Pizza with Daniel, Billie, and Olivia. Then Billie and Olivia and me went to Burger King. And when we were finished we drove aimlessly around town. It was really weird but it was fun. Then Olivia and me dropped Billie off at Downtown Pizza and we met her at Wendy's, then Billie and me went to get her pay check and just hung out after that.

Tonight: I'm coaching. And then I want to take Cassie out for dinner. I'm such a nice sister.

Yesterday: Was hell. Only close friends no what happened. I don't think I'm supposed to have it on here anyways. That would be illegal.

Last night: I just left the house to go get Macaroni and Cheese. And Cassie and me just drove around. While we were at the Ingles parking lot she screamed "AMY WALKER IS A WHORE!"
And people were staring at us. It was embarrassing.

Don't worry about that dude Billie, hes a criminal and he's weird. He won't kill you either. Just don't make him mad.

Tomorrow: Babysitting
Thursday: Babysitting/ Going to the fair with Olivia and Billie.
Friday: Go see Batman
Saturday: Working at the fair
Sunday: Going to church

Pictures of Daniel and me will be up tomorrow.

xoxo
Becca

I carry the weight of the world on my sholders, and family crisis that only grows older.

Good Morning!

I'm finally back from Kentucky. Yay.

Thursday: Aunt Sandi picked us up and we went to Nana's house. Unloaded the car and put all our things in Nana's car. Then we were on our way. We got to the River Road and this guy stopped us. (We were the first car to be stopped). And up ahead it looked like there was a wreck. It was a bad one too. Two cars side swiped each other and knocked the other one into the river. But the guy was ok. I don't know how he was ok but he was. Then all these police dudes and ambulances made their way through all the lined up cars. We seriously were stopped for 45 minutes. And then finally they let like us and five other cars go. But the traffic behind us was AWFUL. Then we went to Picadilly and then to Dairy Queen. Then finally we arrived at Kentucky. We met some cousins. And Aunt's. And then I went to bed.

Friday: We woke up late. So we couldn't get the breakfast buffet or anything. So we had to wait until 11:30 to eat. And let me keep this in mind. We were an hour behind Georgia time. And I had no freaking cell phone service. I only did by the pool. So we finally ate and then Cassie and me went out by the pool. Then we went to the arcade. Then we went back to the pool. And then we ate with family. And sat on the balcony and talked to the family. Whoo. Ohh and did I mention Cassie met some boys and got their numbers.

Saturday: Saturday was the funnest. Aunt Sandi and Nana went out on a drive. And Cassie and me sat by the pool ALL DAY. That was fun I guess. The lifeguard was really hot. Then we ate dinner and we played BINGO. Haha. That was a fun night. And then they had like this Wildlife Show with Ed and they were telling us about it in the BINGO and Hilda (one of the Aunt's) said, "Is he single?" haha and then when he came in she whispered "Ew he's ugly. I want someone younger than that." Finally, BINGO was over and I didn't want to watch the Wildlife Show so I went back to the room and packed my stuff. I'm really upset that I missed Whitney Brown's party. I was really looking forward to that all summer. While I was walking to my room I dropped my key and the this guy goes HEY MAM MAM!! MAM YOU DROPPED YOUR KEY so I turned around and it was the hot lifeguard. haha he was like talking to me a lot and then I was like ok well I have to go finish packing. Then I came back out and decided I would go to the arcade and I was walking up there and I saw the lifeguard again and he was smoking. BIG TURN OFF. Haha. And it was storming SOOO bad. And I called my mom while I was there because I had service. Then Hilda came down, and she said she left during the Wildlife thing because it was boring and she said this woman came in and interrupted and said Ed there's this couple out on the lake on a pontoon boat and they ran out of gas and it's storming. We need you to help them. And he goes I can't I'm in the middle of a presentation. I thought that was plain out rude. I mean its like thundering and lightening outside and someones life is on the line and you won't stop your freaking boring presentation? thats so HOMO. Then everyone came down from the show and Hilda, Maureen, Cassie, Nana, Aunt Sandi, and myself went to the arcade and we all played games. And then we went to bed.

Sunday: We left. And we went to the mall. I got some cute clothes. that was the highlight of my vacation.

Today: I'm doing nothing at all. What's new?

I really miss my friends. It's like I moved away and nobody wants to talk to me. Whatev.
They only wanna talk to me because their so lonely and have no one else to talk to. I'm a backup person. Thats nice to know.

Tuesday: Working and babysitting
Wednesday: FREE RIDES GOING TO THE FAIR with Olivia. And I think Billie has to work =[
Thursday: BATMAN COMES OUT. Connor and Gracelyn we are going to see that together.
Friday: Nothing.
Saturday: Working at the fair for the gym.

Later:
Becca.

Edith and Charlie
"Eat with your fingers. It's funner."-Edith

Edith Cassie and Charlie

Hilda and Maureen
"Say credit cards."-Maureen

Sydney

Me Hilda Cassie

Randomness

Three weeks ago one of my dreams came true. I finally got to see something I always wanted to witness live. I finally saw someone get hit by a car...NAILED! He was hit by a Dodge ... which I found funny and ironic. And you no what? Whenever I see somebody walking down the street or in the hall ways at school and their wearing a Superman t-shirt, I just want to shoot them in the chest and when they start to bleed go, "I guess not". I know it's mean but its so true. I HATE it when somebody turns around in my driveway. I'm just sitting comfortably watching T.V., and I hear a car pulling up and I'm like "Who is this?!" It's so disruptive, so I look out, and its a strange car, I dont know if it's a government official or what haha. I start getting concerned and I'm like "What I dont know this car," then they turn to leave and I'm like "You son of a bitch, you wasted moments of my life! Moments i will never get back!" It makes me so mad. I understand that scissors can beat paper, and I get how rock can beat scissors, but there's no fucking way paper can beat rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around rock leaving it immobile? Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of college-ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they attempt to take notes in class? I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody. A rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play rock/paper/scissors I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh shit, I'm sorry I thought paper would protect you."

Tell Me The Truth Did You Ever Love Me?

Hello friends.

I just got back from Esbees. Cassie got her hair done. And its like so short and cute. I got us lost though on the way there. That figures.

Today: I'm going to the dentist. Whoo not fun. They can kiss my ass. After that, Cassie and me are going to Dairy Queen to eat whatever the hell we won't, just to piss the dentist off. Haha. I don't care. Screw fillings, I'm eating what I want to eat.

Tonight: I'm going to pack for Kentucky. Leaving tomorrow. And while I'm packing, I'm going to watch Baby Borrowers, and Celebrity Circus. Go Weeman!

Last night: I watched Confessions Of An American Teenager. Love that show. And I watched The Tila Tequila Reunion. It kinda sucked. Tila's kind of a bitch.

So I'm gonna take my laptop to Kentucky with me tomorrow, and maybe, just maybe, I will get Internet. If I don't, I'm planting my ass on the pool all day. Ha. The hotel is really nice. But for a family reunion? Whatever. It's traditional.

Ok. So I'm gonna go now.
Heres Some pictures.
Peace and Love
Becca

Bear

Me and Cassie

Jordan and I
a longggg time ago

Me and Samantha

I miss her

Nathan with Oreo's all over him.

The cutest Nephew ever.

Small Town Girl...Your Not Going Anywhere.

Today seems long and its only 2:23 PM.

Yesterday was fun, I hungout with J.C. and Eric. And while we were waiting on Eric, we went to Wendy's and J.C. was like turn right there, and I turned in a DO NOT ENTER sign. Haha I thought we were going to die. Thank God my dentist appointment got canceled. BUT I have to go tomorrow. Which sucks badly.

Last night, I spent the night with my Grandma. As usual I couldn't sleep.

So this morning we woke up at like 7:45 AM and then Cassie and me left to go to the gym and we went to Wendy's in Blue Ridge, to get breakfast, BUT they don't serve breakfast. Only Blairsville does I guess. So then we went to Burger King.

AWW I GOT TO SEE DANIEL THIS MORNING! I LOVE THAT KID. He's my bestie. And then at 12:00 I went back and got Cassie from the gym and then we went to Burger King again, and then went to Grandma's to pick mom up. Now I'm sitting here. I really wanna take a nap but I can't. I'm leaving for Kentucky in two more days =]

I'm glad I will be getting to go on vacation finally.

Well I'm gonna go I guess.

xoxo
Becca

Here's some pictures from the lake Sunday.

Dsob

Me and Cassie

Me and Nathan

Me and Cass

Me Cassie and Nathan

Don't Think That You Are Gonna Bring Me Down.

Good Morning.

I've been a lot happier lately. Thank God.

Friday: Was a great fourth of July. My mom and we went to practice parallel parking and backing up into a parking space. It sucked so bad. Then we went to Aunt Sandi's house and a lot of people came and we just ate and all that. Then we went back to my house and some people came over there to watch the fireworks. There were a lot of kids there. But they were cute.

Saturday: I woke up at freaking 8:00. Then we went to the church parking lot and practiced again. Then we went to the DMV and the dude was so weird. He was like really hateful. I couldn't parallel park, at all. It took me six times and I still couldn't do it. Then I had to back up into a parking space, and I barely did that. I hit 3 cones. But I guess I drove good on the highway. When we went by the high school, he was like, "Might as well get a parking space there." And I couldn't understand him but I think thats what he said. Then we got back and he was like,"YOU PASSED! YOU WERE SCARED TO DEATH!! HAHAHAHA." It was like he had an attitude change. Then when we got home, I took Cassie to Wendy's and then we went to Grandma's. After that, we went to see Walle. Wow I really didn't like that movie. It was weird. And there was these people who were like really strange and loud. Then we went to Wendy's again and got a frosty.

Sunday: Cassie and me went to church. I really didn't feel good. Then we went on the lake with Suzanne, Elizabeth, Brent, Lauren, Emma, and some dude Billie. And we went on the hotdog. It was fun I guess. Then I just went back to bed. What a day. I also found out I will be going to Kentucky on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Yay.

Let's see today, I'm doing ummm I don't know yet. I'm bored though. I feel a little better.


Well here are some pictures.
Later



haha Cassie this picture was taken on a Snow Day

Katy, Me, Elizabeth
I look weird.

Cassie, Me

Me and Olivia

Keep Holding On Cause You Know We'll Make It Through

Mood: Annoyed, Pissed off, Sad

Tired Of: Amy bitching all the time. She can fucking kiss my ass.
Parents
Nathan Crying
Marshall bitching about Amy.
Amy calling and texting Marshall every minute.

Good Morning.
It's kinda weird how I always write this in the morning, so every morning I start it off by saying "GOOD MORNING" I find it weird.

So last night I watched Baby Borrowers, I L-O-V-E that show. Then I watched Celebrity Circus. Another good show. BUT Christopher Knight broke his arm again, so he couldn't keep going. I'm so sad. I loved that dude. So now I'm rooting for Wee Man. He got a perfect 10 last night and I was like holy cows.

Let's see. Today I'm doing nothing. As usual. And tomorrow is going to be sooo much fun. Fourth Of July Party whoot whoot. Saturday I'm getting my license!!! I wish I had a car though I really don't like sharing cars with my mom. I mean we live in Blue Ridge and I'll still have to get up early and come to Blairsville and if I wanna go back home thats a 30 minute trip, and then go back up there and get her and then go back home. Just a waste of gas if you ask me. And my mom does not understand that at all. It sucks so bad. I really think I'm going to fail, so I'm gonna need all the prayers I can get.

Things I'm Excited For:

July 4- Party
July 5- License
July 5- Family Reunion
July 6- Church
July 17- Fair FREE RIDES!

Peace out peeps.

I remember the days we spent together all those times...

Good Afternoon Betches

I forgot to mention in the previous post, about my night last night.
I watched Tila Tequila. CAN YOU BELIEVE CRISTY WAS A FAKE BITCH! I so wanted Bo to win. He was sweet and good to Tila. ANYWAYS I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT FUCKING BITCH LED TILA ON!! It was just wrong. I'm interested to see what happens next week at the reunion.

Today at the pool was fun. I love Billie and Olivia. Then we went to Sugar Shack for ice cream. Except mine tasted really bad haha.

Here is a quote that I like that we said:

Becca: "You know, you and Olivia are like the only girlfriends I have. Yall are cooler than giraffes, and giraffes are pretty cool."
Billie: "Dude thanks, your cooler than a flamingo, and flamingo's are pretty cool."

Thanks for always being by my side girls.
Love ya.

Well I just thought I would share that moment of happiness.
Peace.

He's a faker so see ya later..

Good day peeps.

Well yesterday my dad called, and he's like guess whose here? and my mom was like who and he was like NATHAN. Amy just like dropped him off. Then when she came to pick him up, I was a bitch to her, because I hate her. And I mean hate.

Plans for today: Going to the pool with Billie and Olivia. Also, going to Grandma's to play Wii with Jarrid, then watching Baby Borrowers and Celebrity Circus. Whoo fun

I'm gonna go now. I have a lot of junk food to eat. haha I'm so weird.
Peace Betches.

I guess I need my life to change.

Hello.

Yesterday, was so boring. I was in such a bitchy ass mood. People were like so down yesterday. Except for the people who got to go to that party that I wanted to go to. Not fair. Anyways, everyone is fucking mad at me because I didn't go to that party. Like I said before, people get mad at me for the dumbest reasons ever. It makes me sick. So I thought since everyone is such a bitch I will be too. So I was a bitch for the rest of the day yesterday. To like everyone.

Things I'm Tired Of:

1. Fake people.
2. Liars.
3. Users.
4. People who hang out with me just so they'll have someone to hangout with.
5. My family.
6. SOME of my friends.
7. People who "act" like your friends, then their really not.
8. Jealous people.
9. Being all by myself all summer.
10. Fighting my mom about getting a car.

That's the top 10 things I'm really tired of and depressed about.

So today HOPEFULLY I get to go to the pool and hangout with Billie because I feel like I haven't seen her in like 38475983465834 years. Well I'm getting off this and going on Myspace.

Later Betches.