I'm out here alone, trying to get home

Today was okay.

B DAY:
1st block: We made waffles. They were gross. I was in a group with Kristin, Connor, and Matt. haha. And I cracked the egg and shells went in it haha! i was like there's not shells and Connor was like yeah right look how many white things there are in this! haha. But the first batch was GROSS.
2nd block: we did a reading check which i totally failed.
3rd block: we took a quiz. and YES I MADE a 70 on my quiz!! WHOOT WHOOT! I was so excited. Half of the class failed. One kid made a 6.
4th block: we just talked. and then I was freaking out because I couldn't find my keys and I went to the office and Melinda was in there and I was like where are the keys and shes like go ask mrs.donahue so I asked her and she was like go to the third floor to mrs.jackie she has them so I got up there and those weren't my keys haha. And so we had to find Ansley and Ansley swore she didn't have my keys so I went into Mrs.Atkins room and she had the keys haha. And I was like running to my car before the busses got there and Mrs.Dangler was like what's wrong honey haha it was funny.

Quote of the day: "Boys don't really know what they're doing half the time. Sometimes I'm oblivious to flirting, and I just have to ask, "Okay, what's the deal? Are you into me or not?" Or I'm the last one to even realize that I have a girlfriend until someone mentions it."-Nick Jonas

Hanging out down the street the same old thing we did last week

today was A day.
I went to the doctor yesterday and they told me they called my medicine in to Brasstown in Blairsville and my mom was like no they told me you didn't. and she was like well go up there again after we're through and it should be there. and whala it wasn't there and it was never called in. but i did get sleeping pills. finally.

1st block: we played a weird game.
2nd block: we played the same game.
3rd block: we played the same game again. haha but it was funner
4th block: we came up with our intro ideas.

In 4th block I'm in a group with Bubba, Cole, Rachel, Chris, and Josh. There's just one person everyone is not to excited about. But we all have to meet at 3:30 on Sunday to shoot our footage or whatever you would call it. I'm really excited and I think it will work out fantabulous.

Quote of the day:
Mrs.Colwell: "Becca, what's some things you can't tolerate?"
Becca: "When people say 'Your mom' or 'You would do that Becca' and 'That's what she said.' I could just slap that person."
Mrs.Colwell: "Well, now everyone knows not to say that to Becca or you will get slapped. Where do people get those anyways?"
Some girl: "Off movies. And they try to re-act it by doing it with stupidity."
Becca: "I hate it. Especially the new one everyone is saying..'You would.'"
Mrs.Colwell: "That is dumb. You would do that. No I wouldn't how do you know? HAHA!!"

Right here, right now, tomorrow can wait for some other day

Today was okay.

A day:
1st block: Ansley and me listened to my ipod and worked on your little "Textbook Tour"
2nd block: We did the textbook tour
3rd block: Same
4th block: we decided our intro for multimedia. i say my group will have the best.

Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor.

Quote of the day:
(In English)
Casey: "What if I had a limp arm?"
Becca: "What?"
Casey: "What if I had a limp arm?"
Becca: "What's a lip balm?"
Casey: "No a limp arm like whaaa!! whaa!!"
Becca: "OHHH then you would be...one interesting creature."

Baby are you down down down down down

Down Down Even if the sky is falling down
You ought to know
Tonight is the night to let it go
Put on a show
I wanna see how you lose control


Hello!

Last night was a night I will never forget.
On the way there we jammed out to Jonas Brothers and High School Musical haha
Then we FINALLY got there and we waited in line forever and took a picture with these kids and their dad wanted a picture with us without his kids so Hayley Erin and Laurel took a picture with him..I wasn't getting in it thats weird. Then we got escorted to another place so we could get in faster and met the band HOTSPUR and they were so nice. so we took a picture with them
Then we finally got seated and Honor Society came on and they were great. And played Where Are You Now the best song ever. Everyone says its our graduation song. Then these girls "Wonder Women" came out and they...were okay I guess. And then Jordan Sparks who was amazing. And then finally the Jonas Brothers. It was a lot of fun. I will never forget it. And we touched Big Rob. AND talked to him. Yes. we did. =]
Big Rob raps in the Burning Up song/video so look it up everyone loves him.
There were so many dads there it was hilarious.

Quote of the day:
Singing in the car:
All of us: "Why does love have to feel like a battlefield a battlefield a battlefield.."
Tom: "Love is a battlefield....WHAT THE F IS THAT FAGGOT DOING?? I hate faggots. geezz."

All that matters is the love and laughter

Yesterday was great.
I finally have a change.
I dyed my hair. YES finally.

I went to the car hop and had adventures with Billieboo. That was a lot of fun.
Then we went to the football game. That was a lot of fun. I'm glad I've gotten to know Megan. She's so sweet. Then we went to Wendy's and Walmart.
Walmart is pretty sweet.

TONIGHT IS THE JONAS BROTHERS CONCERT! WHOOT WHOOT!
I'M SO EXCITED!

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
(HAYLEY CALLS)
Hayley: "Hey Becca, did you find your phone?"
Becca: "Haha yeah..."
Hayley: "WELL DUH YOU'RE TALKING TO ME HAHA!!"

haha she cracks me up

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing..with a broken heart.

This, my friends and neighbors, is the table Jordan and me were at while we were waiting on our 14 guests to arrive. We waited for 45 minutes. Everyone was late. Talk about embarrassing. I haven't been to Mexican since last Saturday. Thats kinda a record.


I can honestly say this has been a great week. And I thank God so much for it. I've started something new to build up my relationship with God. I'm starting to put all my trust and worries to God so I don't really have to worry about anything. Because I know God will help me through everything. He's really blessed me with the family and friends and everything I have, and I'm so grateful for that.

Yesterday was a great day it was A Day!
1st block: We worked on our bulletin board. Kelsey, Corina, and me went to the library and made a border and then Corina and me had to glue like 1000 little castles to the boarder.
2nd block: We worked on our bulletin. Chris and me mostly hot glued everything.
3rd block: We worked on our bulletin and finished it! Once again, me and Shawna were the hot gluers. haha. thats not even a word. oh well.
4th block: I was in a group with Bubba, Alden, Connor, and Hayley and we had to do different camera techniques. It was a lot of fun. Haha in on video Hayley and me are beating Bubba up and he's acting like he's crying and then we have two videos of two random weird people walking and another one of all of us dancing.. It was fun. AND OH MY GOSH I'M GOING TO THE JONAS BROTHERS CONCERT WHOOOOOT WHHOOOOOOTTT SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today: B DAY:
1st block: We cooked.
2nd block: Was soo boring. We had to write about who we thought was the most courageous person we knew and Casey begged me to put him and I was like fine and he told me he write about me BUT the little guy signed out. I was so mad.
3rd block: Ah. Coach Hunter scared the living crap out of me because he said we had a quiz today but he was kidding. Its on Monday.
4th block: We reviewed for our test Monday. and shot a ball in the trash can. Fun

Ah tomorrow I get my hair done!!
YAY and then the car hop!

Quote of the day:
Trisha: "I'm ugly though."
Becca: "If a guy is talking to you and likes you, then he thinks you're beautiful no matter what."

How do you like me now, now that I'm on my way. You still think I'm crazy standing here today

I feel like I'm, a million miles away. From myself. More and more these days. I've been down so many open roads, but they never lead me home and now I just don't know, who I really am or how its gonna be, is there something that I can't see? I want to understand. Maybe I will never be, who I was before. Maybe I don't even know her anymore. Maybe who I am today, ain't so far from yesterday, can I find a way to be, every part of me? So I'll try to sort things out, and find myself, get my feet back on the ground. It'll take time, but I know I'll be alright cause nothing much has changed, on the inside. It's hard to figure out how it's gonna be cause I don't really know now I wish i could understand. I don't wanna wait too long to find out where I'm meant to belong, I've always wanted to be where I am today but I never thought I'd feel this way

If it wasn't for you I would be nothing.

To my ex-best friends Don't know how we grew apart To my favorite band And sing-alongs in my car To the face I see In my memories. You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am. To the ones I loved But didn't show it enough. And I'll never see those days again And things will never be that way again But that's just how it goes People change, but I know I won't forget you. To the ones who cared And who were there from the start To the love that left and took a piece of my heart To the few who'd swear I'd never go anywhere.

im loosing myself trying to compete with everyone else instead of just being me i dont know where to turn ive been stuck in this routine i need to change my ways instead of always being weak i dont want to be afraid i wanna wake up feeling beautiful today and know that im okay, cause everones perfect in usual ways. so see i just wanna believe in me. the mirror can lie cause it cant show you whats inside and it can tell you your full of lies ts amazing what you can hide just by putting on a smile.

Oh I wanna know how forever feels

Today...was no better really...it kinda was but not really.

I want things to go to the way they used to be, with my parents, friends, and everything.

But I know it won't happen.

A Day
1st block: Worked on bulletin board ideas.
2nd block: did the same BUT i just made copies for Mrs.Colwell and I went to the library to cut out every piece of cutting thing they had
3rd block: we did the same thing but me, and then Shawna came along to help me, made the cut outs onto paper and made it into a book..well its gonna be a book.
4th block: i thought i would like multimedia but i really hate it. its so boring and i can't stand 99% of the people in there.

I have at least one person in every class who I want to just scream at. and today was not the day to get on my last nerves.

i'm sick of this shit don't ask why

I need to blog:

GAHHH I'm so fucked up.

With my parents and my friends and school and work. Everything goes right for not even a week and then things fuck up. it's always been that way for me. I'm tired of losing people who mean so much to me and we're not friends anymore because of what other people say or do. gah its just pisses me off. I've cried more than I ever have probably today. If I had a bucket it would be full with tears. I'm not kidding. I am a mess and I don't have anything to do but cry and cry and cry. because the friends who are usually there for me are pissed at me. i'm just at the point where i'm like fuck it i'm gonna drop out of school and I'm just going to do nothing with my life. it would be a hell of a lot better than fucking life right now. i can't even type because im so upset and torn up. i feel like a family member died but worse.

fuck my life is all i got to say.
kill me now.

she just has to have a boyfriend every year and treat him like hell...you can go to hell

hello.

today was stressful.
i set my alarm for 6:25 and i woke up at 6:45 because my alarm didn't even come on.

so I was freaking out and my hair looked awful omg.

I was supposed to leave the house at 6:45


B DAY:
1st block:I'm gonna love that class. Wendy and Connor are in it and Matt! haha
Connor was going to switch out but he's not thankfully.
2nd block: Was so boring ughhhhhhhhhhhhh but Jc Casey and Brandon are in there.
3rd block: I was so scared to go in there but I have a lot of friends in there as well. Coach Hunter cracked me up the funny thing is he was serious the whole time. and i have 51 math problems to do.
Lunch: I sat with Connor, Casey, Brandon, Timmy, and some weird kid. I tried to kick him out but it didn't work.
4th block: I don't have anyone in that class. there's like 6 girls thats it. but i have homework in there too.

Then I just got back from coaching and it sucked so BAD
UGHHH!!!!! I've never taught so many whiny kids. it pissed me off

Quote of the day:
Coach Hunter: "People don't know how stupid they look cuddling in the hallways. Guys don't get yourself attached to girls seriously, they make girls everyday. There's plenty of fish in the sea."

And I'm only me when I'm with you

Hello fellow ladiators.

My first day of school was great.

Homeroom: Coach Byers kinda saddened me by telling us we need to enjoy our last year and everything. And Kara just cracked me up haha.
1st block: I sat by Ansley and then we had to play this game to get to know everyone haha.
2nd block: I had Mrs.Colwell again...and theres only 12 people in that class. So I sat by Chris Phillips haha and Chris and me are the only upperclassmen
3rd block: I had Mrs. Colwell again haha and there were only 10 girls in there. And I'm the only senior haha.

I ate lunch with Connor, Ashley, Jordan, Landon, Pierce, Michael, and Seth.

4th block: Theres like 29 people in our multimedia class. It looks like a fun class and everyone could probably get along. We have one junior in there though..which isn't bad.

But all in all it was a great day and I'm hoping today will be a great day.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "Hello Connor and Ashley."
Ashley: "Hey girl!"
Becca: "Hey hey you look pretty."
Ashley: "You look sexy."
Becca: "Psh you look sexier."
Connor: "Haha uhm okay.. This is awkward."

I'm pretty confident I'm gonna have a good year this year. I can't wait!

I'm hanging on another day, just to see what you will throw my way.

These past few days have been odd.


I'm not ready for school to start.
I feel like my life is being rushed.

There's so many deadlines for everything:
College
Work
School
Cheerleading
Spending time with friends/family

I can't do it all at once.
I feel like its going to be very stressful this year.


I'm not happy though and thats the one thing I'm missing. I'm just not how I used to be. Happy.

It kinda seems like people move in a different direction with everything.
Like, you talk to someone for a really long time and then all of a sudden that person doesn't talk to you as much anymore.
I hate it. I planned on going to so many places with my friends this summer and it didn't happen. Its really disappointed me now that I've thought about it.

Today: Cassie and me went to the Mexican Restaurant for lunch and our waitress wouldn't bring us any drinks so Cassie got up and went to go get her own water haha. Then I coached. And Daniel, Cassie, my mom, and me went to go eat at Fatz. Now I'm here at my grandmas. My mom told me today that we are more than likely going to trade her car tomorrow. I'm excited. I'm just blessed to have a mom like her. Most moms wouldn't trade their cars to get their kid a better car. I know I call my mom a bitch and things but she's really not. And it takes time to realize the good in people more than the bad. I learned shes just trying to watch out for me.

Quote of the day:

Jc: "and o yea i saw mrs. atkins at bi-lo."
Becca: "did she talk to you?"
Jc: "she was asking me questions and i just stared at her."
Becca: "are you serious?"
Jc: "yea lol she goes are u excited about school and i go yea and just stared and she goes ok..im gona go buy more food bye."
Becca:"hahahahahahahaha"
Jc: "she hates me so much u were her favorite in the class. but she hated the rest of us."