Sunday: We went to Mimi's house for her birthday. I'll post some pictures. Then we went to my Grandma's house and Cassie and me played Wii with Jarrid. Then we went to Marshall's house and he showed me he had a Myspace. Who doesn't these days?
Today: I'm doing nothing. Ha what a great life I live.
This week I'm getting my license and since I will be getting them, I won't be on this as much. I will be out and about.
Well nothing new has really happened lately. I haven't been on here in like two days, and things are just still getting worse.
Thursday: I wish I got to go to Bradley's house, but I didn't because I couldn't get out of the house and I was just so depressed. I just kept thinking about bad things. I was so upset about Coach West, and all the things with Marshall and Amy, and plus our neighbor made this thing for Cassie because Cassie is always in the newspaper, and she made like 10 copies of each picture and put them in frames and then she made her this one HUGE frame of Cassie, and you know what? I NEVER get stuff like that. And then I realized I don't do anything good for this town, as much as I would like to, I don't. This is a quote from Cassie, "Becca, why don't you get off your ass and do something for once. And stop being so jealous that I'm in the newspaper, and I get all the attention, and you don't. Your nothing but a jealous bitch and a cry baby. So go pout about it even more." That quote just made me break down. Do I ever hear a "BECCA I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!" No I don't. Do I ever hear "Becca how is school?" Then I answer "Good, I'm passing all my classes." And then Cassie barges in and says "My lowest grade is a 93." Then they say "WOW I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!" and then they give her something. and they say "Becca what's your lowest grade?" "Well it's a 81." "Well Becca you can do better than that." Yes I know I can, but I can't because I have freaking testing anxiety. I was just a mess Thursday night. And Thank God Jackie helped me out.
Friday: I went over to the neighbors house about 6:00 and stayed until 11:00. It was a lot of fun, but once again I got depressed. It seems like whenever I'm by myself, I get so depressed. And also I'm going to just forgive and forget everyone who hurt me. If your a TRUE friend, you would not tell your friend, that your a whore for having guy friends, and all that. It's not right. So I'm just forgetting about the people who hurt me, and I'm going to start hanging out with new people I guess. Because I can't go through high school being all upset and shit about this friend shit. It's gay.
Today: I'm going to some party with the neighbors and all. And at 3:00 I'm going out on the lake I guess. THEN I'm going to the party. Well thats it for today. Nothing interesting. Exactly one week until I get my license!! Pray that I pass and please pray for Coach West's family. His wife had to go to the hospital the other day because she was so upset.
God Bless, Becca
Quote of the day: "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."
I feel like I lost all my friends. I even feel like I lost Billie. I stayed up until 2:00AM last night because I just couldn't stop crying. I don't think things are going to get back to normal, as much as I would like them too. All this friend stuff isn't even half the drama in my life. I'm having really bad family problems right now, and its just getting worse and worse as every day goes on. I wish some miracle would happen and EVERYTHING would be great again. I used to love my life, but now I'm just so unhappy, I don't know what to do, and no one is there for me anymore. I just wish things would get better and people would forgive and forget but obviously thats hard for a lot of people to do. I know God will help me with all this, but its taking to long, and I know I need to give God time, but I just can't wait any longer. I don't know... I know things will get better thanks to to God, and I need to be patient. Well I'm going to get off of here and find things to do to keep me distracted from all of this crap.
Later, Becca
So I just found out this morning that Coach West, died of a heart attack this morning. And his wife was out of town and she couldn't get a hold of him and she knew he was hiking so she sent someone out to look for him and they found him dead by a tree. We will all miss Coach West screaming at basketball games and doing all his funny jokes. RIP Coach West your in a much better place.
Becca's current mood= depressed, sad, used, abused.
Well today I really feel like shit. I feel so used. I feel like I was just someone that another person could take advantage of and use me. I feel like I was someone who was brought into a picture and wasn't even supposed to be there. I feel like I need a new friends since no one wants to be my friend. I feel like I need to move away. I feel like I'm just someone that someone can hangout with because everyone is mad at that person. I feel like I treated everyone wrong. I feel like no one can trust me. I feel like no one wants to be best friends with me. I feel like I don't even deserve a spot on this Earth at the moment. I feel like dying and seeing who would show up at my funeral or who would really care. I just don't know what to do anymore, and I just can't take it anymore. What the hell are you supposed to do when you feel like this? I just can't do it. I need to get away. For a long long time. And then maybe everyone will forget me and I can have a fresh start with new people. At this point in my life, I just want to be left alone since no one and I mean no one wants me.
Well I have nothing really to write, but I'm really extremely tired and bored.
So I just got back from coaching at 11:00. It sucked so bad. Emily and me are really pissed off, but we won't discuss that. Let's see today I'm doing.........nothing! Just like every other day. I'm ready for an adventure to start. Well my mom mentioned to Cassie and me today that we are going to Florida in July. So I'm excited. Ah I'm excited about Billie's bonfire.
Tomorrow I'm doing.........nothing again!
Well this is a short post. Peace out. Becca
Old Pictures
Me and Cassie
Me
Me Again
Alex and Me
Little Bear
we found this dog by our house.. there were like 5 puppies and this one was my favorite but we didn't get to keep him =[
Quote Of The Day: "Psh me without you? Thats like me passing up M&M's."-Becca
Well I had quite a weekend. Friday I ended up going to Relay for Life and then Dawn and Ainsley came and they picked me up and we went to McDonalds. Then my mom called me on the way home, and shes like when you get home see if dad is there because he's not answering. So I got in the house and it was soo dark, and I was like DAD DAD!! DAD!! and he was like no where. So I called my mom crying and shes like Cassie and me will be home in a minute, I have to find her. So then I got a knife cause I thought someone was in our house and then I heard something downstairs, so I went down there and it was my dad! and I was like "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?" and he goes pushing out the dock. and I was crying and everything. And I go well I didn't see you down there because the dock lights aren't on and he was like aww its ok and then I expressed my friend problems to him and we went to Dairy Queen for ice cream. It made me feel better.
Saturday: We kept Nathan, and I went to the movies with Billie to see The Love Guru. I love that movie. I was cracking up the whole time. G- Geee U- You R- ARE U- YOU!
Sunday: We went out on the lake, with Elizabeth, Katy, Audrey, Brent, Mom, Cassie, Uncle Jon, and we had fun. And then we went to a bonfire at Billie's house. (Cassie, and me) Ah it was really fun. I wish I could have spent the night, but my mother wouldn't let us. I got sick anyways. I threw up when I got home and I was like ehgguggghhhhh haha
Today: Doing nothing
Pictures: Me and Billie
Me and Alex
Cassie and Alex wow Alex is always moving
Me and Elizabeth
Quote of the day: "Becca Davis, turning straight guys gay, all across the USA."
I don't get why friends have to talk about you behind your back so fucking much. It just makes me soooo mad. I just found out one of my friends doesn't like me right now because of something I can't even help. I mean just freaking don't invite me when your wanting to hangout with just that person, and we wouldn't have this problem. Right after I got off the phone, I just bursted out in tears. It really makes me upset that you can't really trust anyone anymore.. and at this point I feel like I really want to move to Panama City, which is where my mom wants to move, and I'm also at the point, where I just want to be like mom, just sale your store, tell dad move with us, and lets pack our stuff, sale our house, and buy a house in Panama City, and just move away. I mean I can't take anymore of this.. it just puts so much stress on me, and I haven't slept in 3 damn nights. I think people like making me miserable sometimes.
Ugh I did not sleep at all last night. That freaking Dsob, kept me up all night. I'm so tired. I swear I'm dying from exhaustion.
Well, last night, I went to tumble for the last time with Karen. It was a blast, and I'm really really going to miss her. I did my round-off back-hand-spring back-tuck, and I worked on front tucks, which is a front flip in the air. I suck at those. Anyways, I had a lot of fun.
Also, Cassie, spent the night with her friend, Carlie, so I was the only child last night. Yay. I love it that way. So after tumbling last night, me and my mom, went to my Grandma's house. And I ate food there. After that, we went to Taco Bell for Dad. Then we went home. On the way home, I told my mom, I wanted to start my own clothing line. And I showed her my designs at when we got home, and she really supports me, and shes going to try to help me get it all started. I'm truly excited. So if you have any grand ideas or designs on a shirt that you would want, add me on Myspace, and just let me know, or comment this thing.
Today: Me and Billie were going to go to the movies, but I don't think we are anymore, but thats ok! I guess I'm gonna have to be drug to Relay For Life though, we should really pray for those who have breast cancer, their really fighting to get rid of it, so just keep them in your prayers.
Later Betches, Becca.
People Who Matter
Me and Alisha
I miss her
Erin, Kyleigh, and Me
Me, Billie, Rachel P, Rachel R
Me and Billie
Erin, Elizabeth, Me I look high
Quote Of The Day: “If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”
Video Of The Day: I dedicate this video to Billie Odom
How art thou this lovely "shivering" morning? As for me, I'm quite content, but on the contrary, I'm quite upset, (as in a sad way).
Yesterday was an incredible day. I'll start off from there, to tell you about it:
Well I woke up at 7:00 AM and got ready to go to Billie's house to go to the mall. I ate cookies for breakfast and noodles. We left the house at 7:45, and we got to Billie's house at 8:00, on the dot. When I stepped in I was greeted by Leah Poole, (aka: LalalaLeah Poole). And then I was greeted by Billie's wonderful Mother Jennifer, and her sisters Alex, and Samantha. Samantha is such a cutie. Her mom offered me some biscuits and gravy which looked yum, but I already ate so I insisted not. Then I went to chat with Billie up in her room. I love her room. After that, we went back downstairs, and Billie's Aunt Tracy and Cousin Laken, came. They are quite the darlings. I love her family. Then Alex, Leah, and myself sat on the couch, while Alex made fun of Billie's music on her iPod, and blamed me for it. I just giggled and said it wasn't me, and Billie said, " no it was Brandon Hilton." Then we left the house and took Samantha to her Grandma's house. Then we were off to Town Center Mall, which Billie, Laken, and I slept almost the whole way. Then we just went shopping, and Billie got the cutest clothes. I on the other hand, was broker than a poor person living under a bridge. But I managed to get something from Victoria's Secret and Hot Topic. I got an awesome Batman shirt, and cute sweat pants from VS. Leah also bought her first apparel item from VS, which was a shirt and a cute bag. Billie got a cute sweat shirt. And I forgot what Alex got, if she did get something. Later on, we went to Starbucks, yummy, and I got a Vanilla Bean Frappacino. It was delicious. We had a fun time, especially when we went to that book store. We were in there for like an hour. However, Billie had this bright idea to tell this guy that we would meet him above the store we were at. (And not really show up). Then we would say don't you see me? I'm right in front of you! And all that stuff. So we decided to tell him to meet us at Abercrombie and Fitch because we thought that was the store above us and we wanted to watch him from below looking everywhere. Haha I know its mean but hey! its funny! And then Bradley called me and Leah answered, and then he called again and Billie answered and she was like, "Can you meet me in front of Abercrombie and Fitch?" And he said,"Sure!" So we went out in front of the store, and he called again and said,"Where are you?" And Billie said, "I'm right in front of you! Can't you see me?" haha it was really funny. Then we realized we couldn't see anyone up there. So as we were leaving we realized that the store above us was Hollister haha. It was funny! Leah Poole told us the wrong store. Then we left and got Root Beer and donuts at Race Track, and then we met my mother at the Marathon. I thought I was going to have to stay the night with my Grandma, but luckily I didn't have to. So I watched Celebrity Circus and Christopher Knight was safe and Weeman. I was excited. Then I fell asleep at 10:30 PM. I'm such a bum.
So today: The reason I'm upset is because the coaches at the gym, Karen, and Lindsay are moving, and it makes me sad. Lindsay was my gymnastics coach for like 3 years, and Karen helped me get everything and helped me be a better coach, and have more confidence in myself. She has really made me change in a way that I like. I'm finally comfortable with myself because of her. And I love her so much. I'm really going to miss her. I have no idea what I'm doing today, but it smells like farts in here. Haha, ok so I guess I'll call it day. Maybe Billie and I will do something again today, because she has to work at 5:00.
Until Later, Becca.
Random Pictures
Me and Billie
Me And Elizabeth
Olivia, Billie, Rachel, Me
Cassie and Me
Dsob
Quote Of The Day: "You never know what you have until it's gone. Then you want it again."
Video Of The Day:
ALSO: Check out Billie's Blog: www.thebillieodom.blogspot.com
So today I coached. And then went to the pool with the bestest Billie! And we had fun. Then we went to Nancy's and ate ice cream. And now I'm here! Waaa la!!
I'm kinda pissed off, because Mrs. Shelley asked me to coach tonight, and I was like I can't I have plans, and shes like ok, well from now on make your schedule clear of Tuesday Nights because thats when your coaching, and I was like um ok thanks for asking me. So I'm just gonna tell her I can't do it. It pissed me off, and then Emily walked in and shes like can you come in tonight and shes like um no. And shes like ok well I guess Cassie and me can make it through. Then my mom got all pissed off at me because I wouldn't go in, to me, its none of her business, its my decision, and my job, I do decided what I want to do. Oh also I got a job babysitting Autumn and her brother Charles, and Cassie told Mrs.Shelley and Mrs.Shelley was pissed and was like What about her coaching days and Cassie goes I guess she'll quit haha. I laughed at that.
Haha
So tomorrow Billie and myself are going to the mall. I'm going with her mom, aunt, cousin, sister, and her sister's friend. It shall be fun. Well well well I'm like worn out, so I'm gonna go I guess.
Later fater gator! Becca
haha Me
Cassie and I
Dsob
Elizabeth Cassie Papaw Marshall Nathan Suzanne Me
Dsob and Me
Quote Of The Day: "it's like a best friend but more-- it's the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. that someone who makes you be a better person. no, actually they don't make you a better person; you do that by yourself because they inspire you. a soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. it's one person who knew you, accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. and no matter what happens, you'll always love them and nothing could ever change that."
Ah where should I start?? First I want to thank all my friends for everything. You guys are amazing.
This weekend was the best.
Saturday: Billie and me went to Mcdonalds to get a McFlurry and then I was scared to try to attempt to get into Sex In The City, because neither one of us are 17, so we just bought a ticket for the Don't Mess With The Zohan, which we've already seen, and we were there really early so the people made us wait to get in, and then Mrs.Plott came through and I asked her what she was seeing and she said Sex In The City and I was like aww I wanted to see that and she was like just walk in with us, so we did haha. It was a great movie. And then we got out and saw Rachel Rabb with some of her friends; Clay, Bradley, Ragan, and Bonnie. They were pretty cool and then Bradley got my number in a weird way. haha.
Sunday: We had Nathan, and then we went to my papaws house and then went to Dairy Queen, and then went back to Papaws, and then Cassie and me stayed on the lake until like 7:00, and then we watched Snow White lol. I missed that movie.
Today: Billie and I went to Nancy's to eat and then went to the pool and it was fabulous
Tomorrow: We are going to the pool again.
Wednesday: I don't know what we're doing.
Friday: We're going to see The Love Guro! It should be pretty funny.
Well thats it. Later Dudes Beccaaa
Cassie and Me
Dad and Me Fall Ball
Elizabeth Nana Me
Me Chris Jordan
Chris and Me VBFB
Quote Of The Day: "Somebody came and took my hand and I finally had to go but, I just wanted you to know that, I waited as long as I could."
UGH!!!!!!!! Today is like the worst effing day ever. I can't stand Cassie. Well Billie called me and she thought we were going to the movies tomorrow, which kinda pisses me off. Then Cassie asked Billie's sister if she was going with us and she was like no, and now Cassie and Alex are coming with us tomorrow when we're meeting guys at the movies. It just pisses me off so damn much, because I don't want my sister to come along. I don't mind Alex, but my sister is crazy and physco and needs to get a life of her own. She always controls me and I'm sick of it. Oh and she also deleted me off her myspace because shes a little chicken and she just makes me soo mad and irritated. I do sooo much for that kid and she treats me like shit. It's not right. Ok I feel better letting all that out.
Gah, this week has been so boring. You know, I'm super duper mad at my brother right now. He called me the other day asking me if I wanted to get dad this cool thing for Father's Day, but it cost like $100. And I was like sure! And he goes ok just give me $20 and I'll pay for the rest and Cassie can give me $20. And I was like ok! So I got home yesterday and my dad goes, "Did you see what Marshall got me?" And I was like "No." and he showed me and it pissed me off because Marshall didn't even wait on Cassie and me to givehim the present. It just really made my day upside down because he didn't even tell my dad it was from us, it was only from him.
Right now I just really want to get out of this town for like a week or a month. We're supposed to go to Florida soon, but it hasn't happened yet. Well tonight I'm really hoping Billie and I can go to the movies. I need something to do.
Yesterday, we went to see Gracelyn at the gym and shes one of my best friends. I haven't seen her in forever. I was so excited. And then Cassie and I went swimming in the lake. Dude, the lake is like so warm, I'm actually really surprised how warm it is. Anyways, I'm really hungry right now, so I'm going to try to find something to eat and find something to do until Billie gets off work at 5:00. Tonight shall be fun, if it happens.
xoxoxo, Becca!
Me, Rachel Pope, Billie
Me, Billie, Rachel Rabb, Rachel Pope
Me and Daniel
Me and Cassie
Me Marshall Cassie
Quote of the day: "It's hard to get over people, I mean really get over them. You can start to have feelings for other people, but it doesn't mean you're over them. It just means you're moving on."
Video of the day:
Me and DP!
hmm ok so I got bored: I'm going to post some of my favorite quotes:
"It hurts to lose someone you love, but it hurts more when you are left behind."
"In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they make us who we are."
"I’m at this point in my life, where I’m just daring someone to push me off a cliff, just to see if I’m strong enough to fly."
"In my lifetime i've come to realize that you can't depend upon other people for what you want, and you can't be scared to go out there and get it. you have to dream hard, wish big, and chase after your goals, cause no one else is going to do it for you. and even if things don't work out, you'll always be able to say you tried."
"Life changes. You get it all lined up just the way you like it & then something beyond your control comes along & bumps you off center. How nice it would be if you could get everything just the way you want it & say, 'Okay, now, stay.' But nothing stays the same. You grow up, make friends, lose friends, go to college, lose track of people, meet new ones, & sometimes you ask yourself why. But all I can tell you is the every single experience you go through like this changed you in some way. Every new person who comes into your life changes you. Every moral dilemma or emotional experience you come up against changes you. It`s your job you decide how. That`s how character is developed."
Good Morning! Ah last night was crazy. We had a storm, but it wasn't that bad. So yesterday I was watching Celebrity Circus, and I think I like that show. It was pretty good. Christopher Knight did amazing for his age. Also, I discovered that I might be getting a car soon since I get my license July 5. I want a Pontiac G5 and it has to be black. I'm excited. So thats the good news, but here's the bad news: Billie called me while I was watching Celebrity Circus, and told me some really disappointing news. One of our best friends Alisha ran away. I was very depressed. I mean I don't even know what to do. I have so much going on in my life right now, what else could go wrong? We know where she is, but we just wish she would call us and tell us shes ok. We found out this shocking news from her boyfriend. Billie and myself have not talked to Alisha in forever since we last hung out, and we tried calling her and stuff, but it always said her phone was off and stuff, so Billie called Alisha's boyfriend to see if he has talked to her, and he told her what happened. We are very sad, and Alisha is in our prayers, and we hope shes coming back, because she played a big role in my life. She left when I needed her the most.
Oh the drama hasn't got any better. It's kind of got worse. But I know God will lead Billie and I in the right path. I'm so excited about this whole car thing.
Weekend Plans: Friday: I might go to the movies. Saturday: Billie and me are going to the pool... and maybe Casey, Connor, Wendy, and Jacob will come Sunday: Hopefully church.
Well that's all for now.. I'll update if anything interesting happens.
Later alligator:
Becca
Rachel, Rachel, Me, Billie, Sumerset
Luis and myself I love this picture: Mario, me, and Caleb Me and Emily
Billie, me, Emily, Rachael, Olivia, Rachel P.
Quote of the day: "There's always that one guy that you will always go back to. Even though you date other people in between, you are always in the back of your mind hoping to run into that guy."
Well this is my first blog. I started this blog because I just need to get things off my chest, and I decided that this was a good way to start it. I'm not new to blogspot I have an old account, but I forgot the username and all that. Well lets get this started. My name is Becca and I live in Georgia, I have the most wonderful friends; Gracelyn, Billie, Connor, Casey, J.C, Wendy, Daniel, and Jared. They are the best. I love my family, I have an older brother and a little sister, and a nephew who is 8 months. Right now life is complicated for me. My grandpa died March 6, 2008 and of course everyone misses him, and my grandma is so lonely. My papaw just got out of the hospital and he's crazy because he's driving, which he shouldn't be.
Those are not all the problems I have. I'm having friend problems. I'm going to make up these names so no one gets hurt. I'll only use Billie's name. Okay so our groups of "friends" were: Opal, Reese, Billie, Regie, and me. We did everything together. But Billie and I were having some problems with Opal because she ALWAYS got mad at us if we did stuff together. It sucks so bad, because she would call us and be like why aren't you guys inviting me and all that. We did invite her but she never could go. Well then she started calling Billie and me and when she would call me she would talk bad about Billie and told me I needed to stand up for myself with her and blah blah blah. Then she would call Billie and talk about me. Well Billie, Reese, and me went to the pool Monday, and we didn't invite Opal because she freaked me and Billie out with texting me weird stuff saying bad things are going to happen and all, and so we just didn't invite her because bad and now everyone is mad at us because of stuff isn't true. And I'm just so stressed out about we wanted to spend time with Reese. After the pool, we all went to Sugar Shack, and then Opal called me. So I answered and we decided not to let her know we went to the pool because it would make her soo mad. Well she could tell that I was mad about something and she interrogated me until I told her. I didn't want to tell her because all she would do is tell the opposite of that and she didn't need to know about my family problems. So she called Billie and let me remind you I was with Billie, and she told Billie stuff that wasn't true and then she called me and tried to get me to tell her but I just didn't want to tell her if someone is going to tell the whole world my problems. I mean its none of her business. So Opal goes over to Reggie's house and Reese is there and Opal tells them all this crap that isn't true and it makes me and Billie look it, and I need some down time to myself. But I just figured I could get all this out. And if anyone has any ideas of how to help me or Billie please leave me comments and let me know. I guess I'll get off this and try to do something else to get all this off of my mind.
Until later, Becca.
Some Of My Close FriendsBillie and Me Best Friends!Me and Mario!
Me and Mack Me and Daniel Another BFFMe and Jared I love this kid.
Quote of the day: "I always get bad names and looks.I always lose my so called friends. Sometimes I wonder if my life is better than some other peoples, but lately its been so ruff, I'm always down and seem to always just feel like I'm worth nothing. I just want to be a normal girl without so many tears."
Elizabeth, Brent, Cassie
