Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie

hello

Yesterday: Oh my gosh I didn't feel good at all yesterday and I didn't sleep good the night before. I felt a little crappy.
But we all went out on the lake and I got a splinter and it hurts bad.

Then we ate hamburgers and baked potatoes. And sat around and talked. Then I went home and my dad was like are you moving back in and I was like i don't know dude. and then he was like well you can stay here just start telling me more things. Whatever.

Today:
I woke up and took a shower, and then I met everyone at the Mexican. Ew Cassie ordered me something gross. It was a chicken burrito with like cheese sauce on it or something. Then I went to the park and took Cass to the AT&T store.

Tonight:
I wanted to go see a movie but I guess thats not happening. So I'm going grocery shopping and watching Sex In The City tonight.

Tomorrow: I'm going to see My Sister's Keeper.

Quote of the day:
“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”-Sex In The City

Daughter to father, tell me the truth did you ever love me?

Right now I'm listening to family drama.

Ugh. One messed up family.

So I found out today that Billie, Leah, Hallye, and myself all tied for first place last night and I was like Joanne you're kidding me and she was like no I'm dead serious. haha. BUT they had to forfeit because we left. I also found out my cousin died today. Ugh. I'm so not looking forward to the funeral and all that.

Today:
I went to the Diamond Center until 2 and then I went and walked at the park. Then I met Billie at the park and we went to Mexican. Then we went to Ingles just for heck of it and ended up buying candy haha. We saw Timmy, Sam, and Alden. haha. Then we went to Bi-Lo to buy drinks and Dustin was begging us for money. Its like he would really give us sunglasses anyways. Then I went to my grandmas house anticipating on packing my stuff together and going home but I saw my mom sleeping and I laid down and fell asleep. And woke up at 8:30. Sorry Billie, Cassie, Nathan, and John I missed yalls calls. I figured Billie was on break so I didn't call her back. Cassie called just to get a hold of mom probably so I didn't call her back and I don't know what John wanted, but I called Nathan back and he was the only one. And I went to Dairy Queen to get something to eat. Now I'm sitting here at the kitchen table listening to family drama.

I think it is so strange when the most random person sends you texts. I just got one from a good friend I haven't talked to in a while and my phone keeps beeping and my grandma is getting on my nerves saying "is that my phone or your computer?" haha

Tomorrow I don't know what I'm doing but I need to go to church. And I don't have any clothes here to go to church.

Quote of the day:
Billie: "Anyone knows our cars Becca. You drive a blue beat up blazer that everyone jumps on when they see you and my car well it just stands out. So we could get love you mean it on the front of our cars."
Becca: "hahaha everyone jumps on it."
Billie: "Well they do or we could get..."
Becca and Billie: "Love you just saying it!"
Billie: "I should get that."
Becca: "HAHAHA THAT WAS HILARIOUS! Jordan love you mean it. Nathan love you mean it. and Nathan was like Love you just saying it!"

Don't you bother what I do cause no matter what you say I won't return

our bridge has burnt down, I'm stronger now



Good Morning.

Last night:
I went to the Relay and when I got there at like 6 I saw people I dislike very much and they were right across from our tent haha. So I just talked to the people in the tent. They gave me some very informative information about the school I wanna go to. Then Leah came and I was like LALAEAH! As we were walking we saw Dustin and John. So they ended up going with us wherever we went. Actually we got up to the car and I was like I'm not taking you guys with us. Then I said lets see who can get to Wendy's first and Dustin skateboarded there haha. It was so funny. We saw him by the bank and he just started running haha. Then we got to Wendy's and somehow he ended up with a free frosty and large coke. haha. We saw Billie there too working. Oh my gosh John and Dustin were so embarrassing though. Everyone was staring at them and laughing. I was getting ketchup and Dustin and John were talking really loud and this old woman beside them was like cracking up. Then we went to the Diamond Center to get some things and back to the Relay, and then I noticed I forgot my Relay shirt in my car so I had to go back to the Diamond Center to get it and then Billie called and she met us at the Diamond Center and we just drove my car from there. Then we just hung around until our time of fame. haha. And even AUSTIN came =]

Today: I'm doing nothing at all.

I wanna go home!

Quote of the day:
Becca: "Leah thought you were my dad."
Mark: "HAHA did she really?! I could be your brother! But you should of told her I was your boyfriend and she would have been like "OH REALLY HE'S SO HOT!"

Mark won the sexiest legs contest haha.

It's alright, okay, I'm so much better without you I won't be sorry

Hola amigos!

Today:
I came to the Diamond Center.

And I watched 16 and Pregnant again.

It was an episode I missed last night.
Gah then I started thinking about how I don't want to get pregnant. After watching those girls have a baby, makes me really not want to have one. I wouldn't be able to do all that pushing and crap haha.

I went to McDonalds and got Kathy and myself a Hot Fudge Sunday.

And when I got here Mrs.Atkins, David Atkins, and Chris pulled up beside me.
I love Mrs.Atkins. She was like my favorite teacher.
And I won't have her again. Aww gosh we had so much fun in that class. (Jordan, Jc, Josh Bright and Josh Bergan) haha
One time we were taking notes and she was like "is everyone done? can I erase it?" and Jc said no and she erased it anyways. it was so funny. and then we were like doing something and Mrs.Atkins was like what day is it? and Jordan was like Wednesday silly. and she meant the date and she was like JC You don't have to be a smarty about it and it was jordan who said it. Jc thinks she was racist. I don't though. I love her to death. She liked freaked out when they called the homecoming nominees she was like "BECCA YOU GET TO GO DRESS SHOPPING!!!" haha she cracks me up shes so cute.

Then Chris asked me what happened to the side of my car. And I was like long story. I haven't talked to Chris in forever. and then he randomly texted me. I just love things like that. we used to be like best friends it makes my day that he still cares enough about me to talk to me.

I'm also talking to another old friend Tony. Gah I haven't talked to that kid in forever. It's very interesting too.

Tonight is Relay For Life! I will be there around 6 until whenever Billie calls me


Quote of the day:
Becca: "Mom be proud of me. I get like 3 or 4 minutes of fame tonight."
Mom: "Only fame in Blairsville."
Becca: "I'll get a lot of fame when I'm famous. Trust me."

I need to know if its over because I will leave you alone

Today:
I am doing nothing again. Let's just hope I don't get into depression mode again.
I do need to make a drive by/run by my house today to get my dress for tomorrow.
On the plus side, my teeth feel so much better.
So Hersh randomly texted me saying "How's the Diamond Center" sometimes I wish I could hide my car so no one would know where I am.

Actually: today I went to lunch with Billie at the Mexican. Then we went to Zaxby's for my mom. The girl was a retard too.

Show's I've watched today:
I watched two episodes of
-Why is she going out with him? (There's some pretty big deuchebags out there)

Then I watched:
-16 and Pregnant

Then I watched six of episodes of
-The Hills

I miss that show. To bad Lauren ain't gonna be on there anymore. That ruins the show.

Tomorrow:
Relay for Life. I think everyone should come and watch Billie, Leah, and me dance on stage haha just kidding don't.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "your in myrtle beach..go have fun"
Nathan: "hahah im not there yet i leave friday morning"
Becca: "oh haha i knew that!"
Nathan: "lol no u didnt dummy"
Becca: "haha actually you did tell me a few minutes ago."
Nathan: "stupid"
Becca: "psh butt hole"
Nathan: "ewwww"
Becca: "ahahaha you deserve it."

the best song:

Maybe I should I give up.

Soo
I was supposed to go see The Hangover with my mom and when we got to the Blue Ridge Theater they were only playing UP and Transformers. This morning, it said they were playing Land Of The Lost and The Hangover. I'm so fucking pissed.
My life never goes my fucking way and I'm so sick of it. My mom was like heres some money go to Blairsville and I screamed in the parking lot "MOM I'M NOT DRIVING ALL THE WAY TO BLAIRSVILLE TO FIND NO ONE THERE! MY LIFE IS JUST BULL SHIT RIGHT NOW AND I'M SICK OF IT!" And its true my life is nothing but bull shit right now. I don't know what to do. I can't even go home and watch a movie or anything. There's nothing to do at my grandma's house because she talks while your watching TV and she tells old stories and I know this is mean but I can't stand it and I've been holding everything back for too long. I really hate my life right now, I'm having the hardest time and I know nothing is going to change, nothing is going to be better, and I'm pretty sure its going to take a really long time until I'm completly happy again. I just can't do anything anymore. What am I supposed to do?

Oh what a shame what a rainy and ungiven to a perfect day

I just told my mom I wasted my life today.
It seems to me that no one needed me today. So I wish I didn't even wake up today.

This is not gonna be a blog today because nothing has happened and I haven't done anything. At all.

I'm really upset. I keep thinking about everything and I can't stop crying or anything. Its so depressing. I can't do it anymore.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "I don't have any gas to get there silly."
Jordan: "Becca...Lol. You dont have any money."
Becca: "I'm broke. You should feel sorry for me."
Jordan: "Ha..Becca..becca..becca..ha..I'm not going either because I'm out of town."
Becca: "That saddens me because I was expecting to see you and Jc there IF i did go and you both wouldn't have been there. I'm glad I talked to yall this morning."
Jordan: "That makes me saderer because you were going and now you're not and you were expecting to see me and Jc there and we both wouldn't have been there and that would have made you sad."

I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better

I need to vent badly.

Sunday was supposed to be a good day. But it totally wasn't.
I was supposed to see Marshall and tell him all about my trip and give him and my dad their presents I got them. But that didn't happen.
Instead, Marshall told me he was gone to North Carolina to work until next week. I gave my dad his present and he loved it. But then when Cassie and me left to meet my mom, he like flipped out on us and wanted to know what was going on and why Cassie and my mom didn't stay home anymore, and Cassie pretty much told him. That didn't make things any better at all.
When we met my mom, she called my dad and told him to let me come home and get my stuff. Supposedly he told Cassie to never come back.
So I went home and I was in my room. He came in and said "Are you going to grandmas?" and I simply said "I don't want to but I guess I am." And he told me it was best for me to stay there until things get better or "until my mom comes back" which will be never. So I packed half of my stuff and left. Gah I just felt like no one wanted me and I just felt so shitty. And it killed me as I left to see my dad standing there at the front door watching me leave. It sucked so bad. And it really hurts to know that he doesn't want me there, but I don't care, I'm going back when Marshall comes home.
I really wish I could just get my own place. I'm sick of all the family crisis. I think my papaw is just about crazy. I called him on my way home Sunday and he was like "You better come to my birthday party next weekend, you didn't come to the Father's Day dinner." When I saw my mom I asked her if there was going to be a birthday party and she was like his birthday is like in two weeks. I was like well he told me he's having a birthday party next weekend and she was like he's really gone crazy. And if he dies soon its not going to be good at all. Things are just going to get much worse. I'm really scared.
I'm just sick of people worrying about me as well. There's no need to worry about me. I'm fine. I'm just not eating because my mouth. I'm starving but its hard to eat.
Yesterday at gymnastics I was like shaking and Catherine was all freaked out and telling me I wasn't healthy and stuff. I was just like i don't know. And then Kasey told me that someone told her that Mrs.Plott said we don't get along. Kasey and me get along fine. I get along with mostly everyone, I just dislike half of the girls on the squad. I'll probably just talk to Billie, Kasey, and Kelsey. They're all sweet girls.
Today: Cassie left for the beach and she wouldn't even tell me bye. I know this is dumb but I'm very emotional right now and it hurt my feelings that she didn't even say bye. That's so mean.
I'm also really sick of how Marshall is lying so much and it kinda involves me. He lied to his girlfriend telling her that he didn't get home until Tuesday and I was like you're so retarded. He put on his facebook Monday night that he was going to go eat Waffle House with the "little sis at 1:40 in the morning." How did Jess not see that. I'm so tired of her asking me questions about him. Because now I'm at the point where I just don't talk to her at all and I love her to death. And I hate how he's lying to my mom. He's like yeah I got your name off that truck so Becca can get a car now and my mom like found out he lied and didn't do that and he won't answer anyone's calls. Its really starting to piss me off. I'm supposed to have a freaking car now. I'm not even hanging out with my friends today because I'm afraid to drive to Hiawassee because my car can't make it. I've had to get gas everyday. It really sucks. I got $20 the other day and it didn't even fill it up but on the other hand, my gas gauge ain't working. Ugh I'm so torn up.
I don't know what to do today.

Boy we’ve had a real good time and I wish you the best on your way

Hello.

Last night: I went to see The Hangover with Nathan. It was a really good movie and I would like to see it again so I can actually laugh. After that, I went to Wendy's and I saw Billie. I was like JJ can you get Billie because she was standing right there and didn't even see me haha. Then I went to get Cassie at Grandmas and my Grandma told me that she was all worried about me and stuff. Then we went to my nana's and I was eating and I fell asleep. Like I couldn't eat it was bad. Then I went to bed.

Today: I went to work. Daniel and me had like 5 pre-schoolers, and one of them left because she wouldn't do anything haha. Then we went to eat at Grinds and Glazes. I tried to eat Chicken Noodle Soup but it didn't work out. So I'm really hungry. Then I came back to the gym and dropped Daniel off. I think tonight I might work out but I have nothing to do during the day.

Tomorrow: "A friend gathering" We are going to see the Transformers and then go bowling.

Thursday: Nothing
Friday: At midnight: Relay Dance
Saturday: Maybe Papaw's birthday party
Sunday: Nothing

Quote of the day:
Daniel: "I saw this drop dead gorgeous girl and she had this dress on that went to her hips and she scratched her hip kinda and I saw her butt! She had no panties or thong on. I just saw a gorgeous butt!"
Becca: "And how did that make you feel?"
Daniel: "Boing!"
Cassie: "Your cheating on Becca!"

So I'll just sit right here and have another beer in Mexico

Hello fabulous gals and guys haha

Today:
I didn't sleep at all last night but I'm not tired. haha

So my mom made me coffee this morning it was delicous. haha

And then I came to Blairsville.

And then Cassie and me went to Dairy Queen around 12 and then to the Dentist.

My mom didn't even tell me I was getting fillings or anything. She just told me I was getting my teeth cleaned. And I had some doctor who I've never seen before and he was like you have four fillings we need to do and I was like wait dude I'm only supposed to get my teeth cleaned by Kristy. And he was like oh I guess your mom didn't tell you! And that was really painful.

Then while I was waiting to get my teeth cleaned Dr.Hold came by and he was like how are you doing? You had a lot to do today! And I like gave him a go to hell look and some woman was like of course shes not doing good bless her heart shes had 4 fillings and he's like well your sister is in reverse and i was like haha whatever.

I love Kristy shes so sweet. and shes like I saw your mom at the Mexican with all your family the other night and she said yall we're in Tybee and I asked if you guys were still coming for your appointment today and she said yes but I'm not telling them about the fillings. and Kristy was like haha okay and all this bull crap haha

then I waited on Cassie she had to have five fillings haha
and I go back to see her and I was so loopy and Cassie was like haha you look weird! and Dr.Hold was like you guys can be the NUMBY GIRLS and i was like haha NO

I've always been mean to the poor guy

It hurt to talk though and I can feel the shots they put in my mouth =[

And Cassie and me went to McDonalds but I didn't get anything and the lady looked at me weird when I gave her my money haha


Now I'm going to go see The Hangover.

Quote of the day:
Cassie: "Alex sent me the weirdest message today."
Becca: "Whats new?"
Cassie: "It was like I don't like you I love you. I don't think your pretty I think your beautiful..."
Becca: "Yeah yeah yeah I've already heard all that crap. I'm sorry but he's weird."
Cassie: "I know he is...wait you just wish you had someone to tell you that."
Becca: "Psh I would want someone to write it from their heart instead of looking things up like that. Thats what would mean the most."

Right now there's you and me

Hello.

Monday: I went out with Billie and at 1:40 am Marshall came in my room and he's like you wanna go to Waffle House and I was like duh. So we went and we saw his friend Cody. And there were these guys that kept staring us down. It was so weird. and our waitress sucked and Marshall was like leave her a $2 tip but I only left her a dollar haha and then we pulled out and the guys were still staring and Marshall was like cock suckers are still staring.

Tuesday: We left at like 9 am to go to Tybee Island. And we went on the beach and it was like a sand storm haha it was so weird. Oh my gosh I can't even remember if we watched a movie. Oh no we were gonna watch Camp Rock and Cassie blew a fuze so Billie's and my bedroom had no electricity and neither did Cassie or Alex's or Leahs.

Wednesday: We went on the beach and pool and played Monopoly that night and watched Camp Rock

Thursday: Gah I don't remember anything we had epic times too
We went on the beach and pool and played Monopoly. And we watched... I don't know what we watched actually. Oh we went out by the pier and beach all dressed up haha

Friday: We went to GA Southern. It was so hot. But I love that school and I'm for sure going there. And we watched Sex In The City and Miley Cyrus was right by our condo and she was like filming a movie scene. we didn't see her though

Saturday: We went out on the beach and we watched Hairspray and The Notebook. Oh we went shopping before that.

Sunday: We left at like 8 and had a fun time driving back. (Leah and Billie and myself)

I missed a lot of things we did but I don't remember them. Thats so bad. I just love how we all went out and sat on the balcony every night. It was fun.


This week:

Monday: Dentist appointment =[ and idk what else yet.
Tuesday: Working. Yay DP
Wednesday: I am going to see Transformers with a bunch of people and then we are going to Connor and Casey's house. I don't even remember where that is. I've only been there once. haha
Friday: Relay for life

In the McDonalds parking lot Tuesday morning. Thats where we ate breakfast haha

Quote of the day:
(watching Camp Rock)
Billie: "DAMNIT WHY DON'T THEY JUST KISS EACH OTHER ALREADY!?!"

I never thought that I had anymore to give pushing me so hard here I am without you

Hello lovelies.

Today was interesting.
I got up and went to Blairsville. Cassie and me went to eat Mexican. Then we went back to the DC. Then Ansley came by and wanted me to go to the dog park "secret spot" as Billie calls it. And Blaine fished while we worked things out.
Then at 5 Billie and me met and we were supposed to go see Alisha but that didn't happen.
So we went to Hiawassee and ate Dairy Queen and Austin and Adrian came. Then we went to the gym to get my money, and then we went to the park and ride and chatted with people. then we went to get John. Haha. and we went to Young Harris park and swung on the swings. Then we went to the campus to walk. They walked I stayed in the car. Then we went back to get money out of my car and Billie left me and took John back to where he needed to be haha. Then we went to McDonalds for the fourth time for me, and third for Billie. We saw Ashlee everytime haha. Then we saw Shawna. And hung out with her. And got my dad and Marshall food.
Now I'm home done packing =]

Tomorrow shall be grand.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "Dddducktown! Ducktown! You know that cartoon with the ducks?"
Adrian: "No."
Becca: "It went like DDDDUCKTOWN DUCKTOWN!"
Billie: "Do you mean Ducktails?"
Becca: "YEAH!!! DDDDUCKTAILS DUCKTAILS!!"

It's a little to late for you to come back, today was just a mistake

you think I'd forgive you like that? If you thought I would wait for you..you thought wrong.



Good afternoon.

Marshall came home last night at like 12 something and I was trying to go to sleep so I went in the kitchen and I was like Hey! and I scared the shit out of him. I wish I had it on video. So we talked for awhile about life and such. Then I figured I would try to go to sleep and I couldn't so Marshall, dad, and me stayed up until like 4 because no one could go to sleep. Then I went to sleep at 4 and woke up at 7 and then i went back to sleep and woke up at 10 and then I woke up at like 1 something.
And my dad made me a really good lunch. I love that man.
Now I'm sitting here watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Well now its over but still. that's a freaky movie.
Gah I'm like so pissed off right now.
I hate it when friends act like they're your friend. Ugh.

Ooo now I'm watching Legally Blonde
I love that movie.

Tomorrow: I'm going to get a pedicure. I need one. And a back massage.

And I'm packing for Savannah tomorrow. I'm so excited.
I really wanna see The Hangover. UUUGGGHHHH


Quote of the day:
"Imagine the people you see everyday right now, the people you would least expect to not see tomorrow. In a couple years, college will come and with it new friends and new experiences. The people you see everyday in the halls; your friends and some of them, your best friends, will disappear from your life... each going their own way. You'll see them once every 10 years at some random reunion, if that. These are the people you have grown up with and become friends with or even if you're not, there will come a time when many of them won't even cross your mind. The truth is ... you'll see your best friends maybe once a year because time goes by so fast and everyone is so busy. Enjoy today and enjoy tomorrow because these days come but once in your lives. Be thankful for what you have and most of all, for who you have in your life because life's plan for you may bring you away from these people. But no matter what anyone else says, and no matter what time can do, your heart will always bring the best back, and your memories with them will forever hold a place in your soul."

Your beautiful but you don't even try

Hello.

Today: I woke up at like 12 something and got ready and got gas. Then, I cherried myself to my grandma's house and saw Laurel, and Steven (cousins) and Uncle Tim. Later, Uncle Tim left and then Cassie and mom finally got there. We all had fun. Haha it was interesting. Then they left at like 7 and mom and cassie and me went to Walmart, Pizza Hut, and Ingles. Now I'm here.

Tomorrow: Sunday Funday out on the lake!

and MARSHALL'S HOME..for ten days.

Currently listening to: Fly With Me-Jonas Brothers

Quote of the day:
(Steven talking about Grandma)
Becca: "Steven! That's mean shes right there."
Steven: "She can't hear us. Say Grandma."
Becca: "GRANDMA! GRANDMA!"
Steven: "See..she didn't even notice you were saying her name."

if you jump I will jump too we will fall together

I'm gonna vent.

So.
I hung out with Greg and Taylor and their girl friends and they were like lets all go to Morganton Point to see some friends and I was like I'll go home and they're like no come with us so I rode with Taylor and we got there and everyone was talking and these people are all in band. Except Greg. They go "Your not a band geek are you?" and I said "No." and they said "Are you a cheerleader?"
and I said "Yes." and they said "We hate cheerleaders." and i didn't even know what to say.So after that they just didn't talk to me at all.

im really sad.
im gonna go to bed early and watch a movie.

I found a way to let you in but I never really had a doubt

Hello.

I got like 3-4 hours of sleep last night. I'm dead tired. I woke up at 8:30 this morning and got ready to go work for mom. I think she's proud of me =]

I answered the phones and helped people

I'm proud of myself.
I also got Kathy lunch and saw Jennifer and Alex (Billie's mom and sister) then they came in the Diamond Center to tell us about our Savannah trip and then Billieboo came in =]
And we talked.

Tonight: I'm going to meet some friends from Blue Ridge to go eat Dairy Queen. It shall be fun fun fun.

Tomorrow: I'm going to see Hangover


Quote of the day:
(Elizabeth on the phone with Brent)
Elizabeth: "Yes we love you Brent."
Suzanne: "I love you Brent."
Cassie: "I love you Brent."
Elizabeth: "Cassie and Suzanne said they love you."
Brent: "Becca didn't say I love you?"
Elizabeth: "Ha no she didn't."
Brent: "I didn't think she would."

Currently listening to: 7 Things-Miley Cyrus

I can see the world through your eyes we'll leave it all behind

Today:
Me and my dad went and ate at Sue's again.

Then we rode around Blue Ridge. Then I went to Blairsville to see mom and Cassie. And since my mom has to take my grandma to the doctor tomorrow, I'm working at the Diamond Center tomorrow. I'm so nice. But she is getting me a car so I need to do some nice things for her.

Then Cassie and me ate at Mexican and the waitor kept flirting with us.

Then we went to McDonalds and the woman GRABBED MY HAND!!!!! and she gave us this coupon thing and told us we needed to try some McCafe thing. haha

Then I got my dad Subway and I got gas.

Tonight: I'm going to watch 16 and Pregnant.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "I want a chicken sandwich and a sweet tea."
Dad: "And fries."
Becca: "No I don't want fries."
Dad: "Yeah you do."
Becca: "Ha no buddy I don't."
Dad: "You need some well you can have some of mine then."
(20 minutes later)
Dad: "You want some of my fries?"
Becca: "No."
Dad: "Are you sure?"
Becca: "Yeah."
Dad: "Have some."
Becca: "I don't want any."
Dad: "You need them."
Becca: "NO I DON'T."
I think my dad just tried to annoy me today. I about killed him today.

Then we went passed the pink car I wanted and he told me he would be more embarrassed to ride with me in that car then I would in his truck and I said I would make it be embarrassing.

Currently listening to: If I Were A Boy-Beyonce

I can't take a day without you here. You're the light that makes my darkness disappear

Hello dear ones.

Lets see I woke up at like around 12 something. It was a late 12.

BUT I had a good reason.

I went to sleep at like 2. Then this morning at like God knows what time my dad comes in my room and he's like BECCA OH MY GOSH DID YOU KNOW YOU HAVE SENIOR PICTURES AT 10:30? And I was like yeah we cancelled them and he kept asking me questions and I was so mean I was like DAD YOU HAVE WOKE ME UP EARLY IN THE PAST TWO MORNINGS! LET ME SLEEP!!!!!That was mean.

Then I woke up and he we're about to leave to go eat.

I have nothing to do now. My aunt's birthday party got cancelled because shes sick.
=[

I'm so mad because people texted me and they're like lets hangout and I'm like I can't. So now I have no one to hang with. =[

Okayy well I'll type more about my day when I get back.

xoxo
Beccaa

How long will I be waiting to be with you again?

I come to tell you that I love you, in the best way that I can.




=]

That song makes me cry.
I was listening to it on my way home and started crying. But I haven't had a good day.

First.
I was supposed to wake up at like around 7 so my mom could follow me to Blairsville because I'm scared to drive that thing I have BUT my dad woke me up at like 2:30 asking me what button on the phone is the pound key and how he wanted me to call this number for him and all this shit. I was so pissed. My mom then called me at 7:30and I was like I'm going to sleep momma and she said okay call me when you leave the house. So I slept until 11 something. And got ready and hungout at the Diamond Center ALL DAY. It sucked.

Second.
We went to Bill Holt Cheverolet and Pontiac in Ellijay. I knew they didn't have Pontiac G6's available so I was anticipating on finding something else that I liked. I kinda like the G5's but I don't want one. I saw a two door/two seater car but it was red. I'm so picky. But then my mom told me that she has two cars in her name right now and she can't have another one in her name so I was really pissed. Then she told me they kept calling her today figuring out a deal because shes a getting a car too.

While we were there Cassie kept saying "You need a job. Get a job. Your so lazy get a job." and I yelled this while we were at the car place "CASSIE SHUT THE HELL UP I'M SICK OF YOU TELLING ME EVERY SINGLE DAY THAT I NEED A DAMN JOB! GET OFF MY BACK ABOUT IT, IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS SO JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!"
I think my mom was a little pissed but it needed to be said.

She's like a little bitch. I swear 14 year old girls are going through some kind of phase and they're all little bitches and they think they're better than everyone else. Well guess what? THEY'RE NOTHING SPECIAL!

UGH.

Oh then we went and ate at Papa's Pizza in complete silence.
We were all very angry.

Hell, I'm still angry.

Tomorrow: I'm going to my Aunt's surprise birthday party in Ellijay.
Friday: I am hanging out with some friends from Blue Ridge who I haven't seen in forever.
Saturday: Who knows.
Sunday: Don't know.
Monday: Packing for SAVANNAH

Quote of the day:
"I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it."-Audrey Hepburn

Currently listening to: Sadie Hawkins Dance- Relient K

Now your my whole life now your my whole world

I just can't believe the way I feel about you.

BEST SONG EVER

Tell my mother and tell my father, I've done the best I can

I hated today.

I didn't sleep at all last night. I went to bed at like 12 and just laid in bed. I couldn't sleep. Then I figured I would watch TV and Jon and Kate Plus 8 was on so I watched that, then two episodes of Cake Boss and then the Little Couple. I still couldn't sleep after that and it was like 2. So I pretty much just laid in bed until 7:15. And then Cassie came to the house and we went to eat McDonalds. Oh my gosh she was the biggest bitch. She was like GET A JOB out of no where and bitched at me for what I was eating and told me I was selfish. I just about shot her. I also felt like I was going to throw up today. Thankfully I didn't. Then I went and coached and this little girl asked me a MILLION questions. UGH I was so mad.

At 5 I went back to coach and this little girl farted in my face..again.
Then I was leaving and I got down to the stop sign and my car died. I was like shit. So I called the gym and I was like I'm stuck down here in the middle of the road. And Jenna was like I'll come get you but we need to move your car and I was like good luck. I called my mom while waiting on her and I finally got my car started and Kelsey Lockaby's mom wanted to follow me home and I was like no thats not necessary. That's a long ass drive haha. But I made it home. OH WAIT I saw Suzanne walking Brady and I rolled my window down and it wouldn't role back up.

I'm also not going to Virginia.

I hate this.

Tomorrow I'm going to look at cars for sure. I really really don't want a four door car. Hell with that. I'll find something different.

Quote of the day:
"It seems like I can only remember the boring things that happen to me."

Remember those walls I built well baby they ain't tumbling down

Hello

Today I woke up at 11. haha Cassie woke up at 1 and she freaked out on me.
Shes like why didn't you wake me up? I never sleep that late! haha it was hilarious.

Then we got ready and went to Blairsville and ate Pizza.

Then we did nothing.

Then I took her to gymnastics.

Then I got back and my mom tells me that they only have a four door car and not two doors and it PISSED ME OFF I'm still pissed off.

Then I got my dad something to eat and went to Billie's house to get some yummy food and came back home and ate with my dad.

tomorrow who knows whats going to happen.
I have to coach at 9. =[
and go back at 5:15

Quote of the day:
"Sex is more exciting on the screen and between the pages than between the sheets."-Andy Warhol

I don't need you and guess what I'm having more fun and now that we're done I'm gonna show you tonight I'm alright I'm just fine

and your a tool so, so what.

SO I'm bored.

So I figured I would make a list of dislikes:

- I hate liars. They go to hell.
- I hate when people twist my words around and make me look bad.
- I hate when people scrape their teeth on a fork.
- I hate when you walk into a restaurant and EVERYONE stops eating and stares at you.
- I hate when my phone freezes when I'm in the middle of sending a text.
- I hate when people go off and tell someone my history. Get a life. It was in the past so move on.
- I hate when guys ask for a dirty picture. Watch porn. There's prettier girls out there.
- I hate when you check out at a store or something and the person checking you out doesn't say anything..they only tell you how much you owe them. You don't even get a thanks have a good day.
- I hate when I go to McDonalds and the woman who takes my money grabs my hand.
- I hate how my mother tells me she'll do something and she doesn't.
- I also hate how she tells me I'm getting something and I don't get it. Call me spoiled but its happened to many times and it pisses me off.
- I hate watching the ETC channel with all the bad singers on there. It pisses me off when my dad watches it and its on really loud in the living room.
- I hate how people have to know everything I did on a day.
- I hate how people tell me how to live my life. It's my life. You have your own.
- I hate how people tell me to do something they know I don't want to do and then they get mad at me for not doing it. Thats not a real friend.
- I hate how I let people walk over me.
- I hate going to Papa's Pizza the guy is a perv and always tells me something about what I'm wearing.
- I hate when people from Florida are in front of me and they drive 55 in a 65 lane.
- I hate when I download music and it says "Music on demand."
- I hate our President. I liked George Bush 100 times better. And I agree with everything Mr.Durbin said about our President.
- I hate coyotes.
- I hate fruit. I tell people I'm allergic to it for a reason. BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE IT! GET OVER IT. Don't tell me how I need to eat it and its healthy. It's my body I'll eat what I want.
- On top of that I hate how people tell me I eat unhealthy. ONCE AGAIN ITS MY BODY!
- I hate how people tell me I'm to nice. I like being nice. Its better than mean.
- I hate when people call me and they don't leave me a voice message. You called me so don't get mad if I don't call you back, you didn't tell me to so I'm not unless you leave me a voice message telling me to.
- I hate having to wake up at 6:15 during the school week.
- I hate my car. It sucks.
- Oh my gosh.. I just remembered this, I hate when people come up to me and ask me why I drive what I drive. BECAUSE MY PARENTS TOLD ME I COULD DING IT UP.
- I hate having a Walmart in Blairsville. Its gonna make me wanna stay in Blue Ridge.
- I hate having a red light on Hwy. 515. It was made so there were NO RED LIGHTS.
- I hate watching things that I'm not interested in.
- I hate how I call Cassie a bitch and she says "I learned from the best!"
- I hate when the sun comes out after it rains. Just rain the rest of the day.
- I hate the smell of rain, mowed grass, etc.
- I hate driving 5 people. GET YOUR OWN RIDE!
- I hate how people USE me for a ride and just because I have a big car doesn't mean you can ride with me. I'm getting a smaller car because of you people who assume that.
- I hate how people don't give me gas money if I drive them somewhere out of the way.
- I hate kudzu. Why do we need it?
- I hate how people bitch at me for putting a lot of salt on things. ONCE AGAIN ITS MY BODY!!
- I hate how people take life way to seriously. Have some fun.
- I hate Chinese, Japanese, Mediterranean any food. Don't tell me I'll like it. I know I won't so don't tell me.
- I hate when someone is like can I ask you something or can I ask you a question? Well bud you already did ask me a question by asking that so whats your next question?
- I hate when I coach how the little kids say "I wanna go over there!" and I'm like we've only been here for like 2 minutes. Chill.
- I hate when kids fart in my face. DISGUSTING! GO TO THE BATHROOM!
- I hate when kids throw up.
- I hate how bitches think they run our school and town. YOU DON'T
- I hate when people wear black pants with brown shoes or blue shoes.
- I hate "Bitchassness. This includes the act of being a bitch, pussy, or an ass hole in general. Grow up punk."
- I hate how Twilight is so overrated. and people say they're going to marry Edward Cullen or Jacob Black. HELLO! ITS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER! Your not going to marry a fictional character get it through your head.
- I hate when you think someone is your best friend and they ruin your relationship with a boy.
- I hate when your "best friend" tells yours friends that your a dumb ass and an idiot.
- I hate cats ahh they're so scary.
- I hate snakes. Especially in the lake.
- I hate how Cassie just corrects me on everything.
- I hate how Cassie is just so perfect.

Your vain, your games, you're insecure, you love me you like her?

You make me laugh you make me cry I don't know which side to buy, your friends their jerks when you act like them just know it hurts. I wanna be with the one I know

Hola amigos.
Como esta?

Well today:
I thought I was going to church so I woke up at 9 and called my mom and shes like I didn't sleep last night. So I thought "YAY! I GET TO SLEEP LONGER!" So I went back to sleep until 11. And Suzanne called me asking me if I wanted to go out on the lake with her, Elizabeth, and Brent. And I was like yeah dude. Then Cassie called me telling me I'm picking her up at Food Lion. As I was leaving my dad told me to get him Subway and potato chips and I was like haha I just thought I was meeting Cassie and I'm going in public like the way I'm looking? I didn't care though I was like screw it. So I actually met my mom at Subway because I hate ordering there and I got Cassie and we went to Ingles and saw someone we knew. Bummer! And then we went out on the lake until like 5 or 6. Then we went back to Ingles and bought High School Musical 3 and bread and hotdog buns. Then we came back home and watched it and I cried. Its sad.

Now I'm watching Daisy of Love haha.

I'm gonna straighten my hair soon though haa


Quote of the day:
"I have Social Disease. I have to go out every night. If I stay home one night I start spreading rumors to my dogs."-Andy Warhol

Your friends, their jerks when you act like them just know it hurts.

What a day.
Period.

I woke up, went to Grandmas to get two tables for the car show and then I went to the Diamond Center and saw mom and Cassie and Cassie and me ate at Cooks. I saw Will Gray. We talked. Then I met Billie and Hersh and we went to oh where did we go..oh yeah the Loft. I wanna go back they have soo many cute things. Hersh said I liked witch shoes haha. Then we went to the Young Harris park and swung on the swings. Then we went to the park to see Timmy, then we went to Hersh's house for them to get swimming trunks and we went to the cliffs, none of swam though haa. And we saw Cody and talked to him. Then we went to eat at Mexican and we couldn't understand them and Hersh eaves dropped and they wanted Billie's number haha then they talked about they're bitchy customers. haha. Thenn we went to the square and Taylor showed me his awesome truck and I talked to this guy about the car I wanted and he said they had one in. So I'm looking at it Monday. Then we rode around and went to the parking ride, and then we went to Bi-Lo to get a snack and ran into Dustin, Farrah, Pitman, and Jon and talked to them. Then Trisha and her sister came and we went to get cookie dough. Then we went to the magical spot and someone took our place. Then we went back to the parking ride and my car got harrassed. I saw so many people. It was weird. Then we went to the park and hung out. Then we rode around in Billie's car. It was a very big adventure.


Quote of the day:
(at the movies we kept making Hersh get us snacks.)
Becca: "Hersh.. I need a snack."
Billie: "Me too."
Hersh: "Give me your money, they're gonna think I have the fucking munchies!"

Left my heart into left me standing here singing all these blues

you left without a single word.not even sorry.




Hello!

So Dad and me went and ate at Sue's for lunch and then I went to Blairsville and then Billie and me went to the dog park ahaha. Random. And then we went to the park and then we went to Bi-Lo and we saw Jesse and Jerrid and talked to them. Then we went to the Parking Ride and we saw Mitchel and Mario there and then we went to Mexican and I saw little Karis (a girl I coach) and some other people. Then we saw Trisha.

Oh and Billie and me got lost..well we tried but it failed. haha

Actually Billie and me had like the weirdest night. It was pretty epic.
Oh and before Billie and me went out I went and ate a frosty with Cassie and cleaned my car out. haha

Who knows what tomorrow will bring.

Quote of the day:
" I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life. I'm going to take a stand. I'm going to defend it. Right or wrong, I'm going to defend it."


WAIT HERES ANOTHER ONE ITS THE BEST

Billie: "Your an XY Chromosome."
Becca: "Oh my gosh..if you talked like that on dates it would freak me out."
Billie: "That's why I need someone weird like me."
Becca: "And intelligent. Does that mean girl."
Billie: "Yes..actually..your an XX thats means girl."

Woke up today feeling the way I always do! Hungry for something that I can't eat

Hi.

It's 1:24.
I just woke up at 1:15 PM

and my mom called and I was like

B: "hey did you call me?"
M: "Yeah I was seeeing what you were doing."
B: "I just woke up."
M: "OH MY GOSH YOUR ALREADY TURNING INTO A DAVIS!"

Haha what a spaz.

That's all thats happened to me. I want Waffle House REALLY BAD.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you, been here all along so why can't you see you belong with me

standing by waiting at your back door all this time how could you not know baby you belong with me?



Hello.

So little grandma woke me up at 11:25 this morning.
Becca: "Hello?"
Grandma: "Did I wake you up honey?"
Becca: "Yeah but its okay."
Grandma: "Well it is 25 minutes past 11. I was just making sure you didn't forget about me today."
Becca: "I'll start getting ready."
Grandma: "Don't rush honey, I'm sorry I woke you up, but its late."
Becca: "Its okay G-ma."
Grandma: "okay bye honey."

Haha shes so sweet. So I got her..and Jerrid. And we went to the nail place and it would have been a 30 minute wait so we went to Wendy's and then the Dollar Store and then back to the nail place so she could her nails done. I didn't want mine done today. I wasn't in the mood haha.
Then I went to KFC for my padre. And I said:
B: "I need a 10 piece crispy chicken..not the meal."
KFC: "We only have grilled."
B: "Well I don't want grilled I want crispy."
KFC: "We can't do that."
B: "Why not? Yall used to?"
Then this other lady comes on:
KFC: "MAM!! DO YOU WANT A 10 PIECE GRILLED,CRISPY,OR ORIGNIAL."
B: "I JUST WANT CRISPY!"
KFC: "It will be a seven minute wait."
B: "Fine..thats okay."
KFC: "It's 10.27 drive around please."
So I got up to the window and the girl goes you got grilled right? and i said no crispy. And the receipt said grilled. so she gave me my food and i go this is crispy right and shes like oh yeah it is. and i was like whatever. so i left and i gave my dad his food and i was like don't ever send me back there again. little hateful assholes.

Then I went to Blairsville and talked to mother until Billie came and we got gas, and picked Hershal up and then went to see Night At The Museum. There was some peopel that showed up that we wouldn't have minded if they didn't come but whatever. They're all little bitches.
To me and Hersh. Not Billie.

Oh and Hersh had to get up a million times to get us some snacks haha.

And Billie laughed at me because I talk to myself.

AND THE JONAS BROTHERS WERE IN THAT MOVIE
Only for a few parts but still, that made everything better.

Quote of the day:
Becca: "I need a snack."
Billie: "haha."
Becca: "Hersh..I need a snack."
Hersh: "What do you want?"
Becca: "Reeses."
Billie: "They don't have reeses."
Becca: "I want reeses if they don't have that I want M&M's."
Billie: "Get a bag of M&M's."
Becca: "NO REESES!"

And he comes back with Reeses Pieces haha but thats okay. I still got my M&M's. haha i just love my friends. they're all amazing.

So go ahead and get gone and call up that chick and see if shes home

Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know What did you think I was putting you out for? Because you was untrue, Rolling her around in the car that I bought you Baby you dropped them keys, Hurry up before your taxi leaves



"I just do what I want. it's not what about what people are saying. It's about me.
Everyone else can just fuck off. I'm getting sick of this bull shit. Thats my new favorite word..bull shit."

Hello.

I woke up at like 11 this morning. I can barely move. I'm so sore because of last night. I cleaned my room today and I realized I have TOOOOOOOO many clothes. I don't know what to do with it all.

And I was thinking if I ever moved I feel sorry for the person who is going to help me. Haha.

Well I'm going to get in the shower and go to Blue Ridge and get me something to eat. Its so lonesome to have not many friends in Blue Ridge because I eat by myself. and its weird.

Hmm.

3:30
Okay so now I'm back.. and on my way to Blue Ridge Mack called me asking me to go swimming with Beau, Luke, Shane, and him and I was like if you would have called me at like 12 I would have gone. Then there was this truck on the side of a bank and a cop across the road and I saw the dude get out of his car and I think he was drunk. He like mid 50s 60s and then Hersh called me asking me to go to the movies with him again tonight and i was like no dude lets go tomorrow. So tomorrow night Hersh and Billie and me are going to the movies.

Now I'm watching Hiarspray again. I forgot how much I loved this movie. It just makes me feel good. I love it.

Quote of the day:
(Irreplaceable comes on the radio)
Elizabeth: "CAUSE YOUR IRREAPLACEABLE! This is Becca's song."
Becca: "Psh. Yeah right."
Suzanne: "You got checked out at the bowling alley lets see if we can find some more guys since your single now."
Becca: "I don't need another guy."

BEST PART OF HAIRSPRAY
IT JUST TICKLES ME TO DEATH

Why do I keep running from the truth? All I ever think about is you

Hello world.

Today:
I woke up at 7:15 AM and then Cassie and me went to McDonalds and our food was like $4 and I gave her a $20 and she gave me $5 back and I was like I may suck at math or I've gone crazy and thought I gave you a 20 but is this the right change. and she goes you gave me a 20 and i go yeah so shouldn't i get like 15 dollars back? And shes like oh I just didn't have any change. And I was like bitch. and the guy was like i'm so sorry about that. Then I went to the gym and surprise surprise Daniel pulled up by my car I like freaked out because he never works Tuesday mornings. So I jumped in his car and talked to him then Mrs.Shelley got there and we worked..and then I picked Cassie up at like 12 and helped Mrs.Shelley clean the pit and see if it was free of snakes. They found a snake yesterday so Daniel like put lime all around the gym and found another one today. SCARY. Then I went to the Diamond Center and mostly just slept. Then I went to work at 5, we had to there at that time instead of 5:15 because we had to clean the pit and they we had to like throw the foam and stuff in the pit and Mrs.Shelley was like "Becca why don't you move over by the bars..your not a very good thrower." and Daniel said "Yeah Becca your athletically challenged." Thanks DP. So we worked and we stayed to tumble..we didn't much because Leila and DP and me just kept laughing at stupid stuff. Oh my gosh I woke up this morning with a bruise on my head. I don't know how it got there but whatever. I covered it up. It like adds to the bruise on my nose. And I had this one girl fart in my face, and another one took snot OUT of her nose and stretched it out and looked at it and I yelled so loud i was like "EWWWWWWW GO WASH YOUR HANDS!!!!" and she comes back and she goes I got all the boogers out and i said good! did you wash your hands and she goes yeah smell and i was like no. haha
weirdness.
Then Daniel and me went to eat Mexican. Gosh they put this nasty stuff in my food that tasted like throw up. So I watched DP eat haha.

Quote of the day:
Daniel: "I told my mom about how Cassie was in love with me and she said "Aw you and Cassie...she would set you straight honey." And my dad still tells the story about how she said something to him and he had nothing to say back. He said he felt sorry for you because of Cassie and he likes you..he's like Becca is hilarious I just love her."
Becca: "hahaha AWW! I love your mom.. I will have her again next year. I don't know your dad I met him like twice and I saw him at the grocery store and he was like BECCA HEY! and I was like Hey!! haha."
Daniel: "Haha he told me about that!"
Becca: "Gosh Daniel I can't believe you told your mom that! Cassie would KILL you if she knew that!"
Daniel: "HAHA mom thinks its hilarious."

It's a great day to be alive I know the suns still shining when I close my eyes

and theres hard times in the neighborhood but why can't everyday be just this good?


Hello

I woke up at like 10. i was so tired and I took a shower and straightened my hair. I can't wait until I get it cut. Its like really long and I haven't straightened it in like a week. So I just realized how long it was.

Then I went to Blairsville and Cassie and me ate Mexican. Then I got back to the DC and Mrs.Shelley came in and took Cassie to the gym and then Cassie called me asking me to bring her her knee brace and so I did. And I got back and Ansley was there and asked me if I wanted to hangout so I went to the park with her for like 10 minutes and then I later met Billie and Trisha at the park then I left. And got Cassie from gym.

Now I'm watching Hairspray. The best movie ever.
Besides the other best movies.

haha it has Zac Hotfron!



Quote of the day:
"Like do you know she has six smiles? One when something really makes her laugh. One when she's making plans. One when she is laughing out of politeness. One when she is uncomfortable. One when she is making fun of herself. And one when... she's talking about her friends."