Dreamers you see everything in color while the world is getting darker

Right now I'm alone.
And it just makes me think.

-Why do people want to ruin their life with all the shit they're doing?
-How can you say you hate someone so much and be that person's best friend?
-Why are most guys just players and use you and then never talk to you again?
-Why do your friends talk about their boyfriends 24/7 and talk about how happy they make them? I mean I care and all but it gets really annoying if its all they can talk about.
-Why are 14 year olds in a PMS stage all the freaking time?
-Why are many families falling apart?
-Why are so many couples breaking up?
-Why does someone brag about their boyfriend when everyone knows he's NOT that great as you make him out to be. He's just a dick and you're not going to get married.

I wish girls could see that they're gonna get played by at least one guy and that guy treats them like shit but they are still crazy about them. No matter how much that girl cries over that guy she still loves him. I just don't understand.

I was talking to my mom and I was like mom I'm really ready to get the hell out of this town and just move on with my life. And she said go to Fannin County I think you'll be happier there. I don't know if I want to do that though because it's my Senior Year. I have friends in Fannin County and everything but I don't hangout with them as much as I do my Union County friends. I'm really confused in my life. I hate when people ask me to hangout with them and I have plans with someone else and they just get so pissed at me. Gah. I hate it so much. I'm listening to David Archuleta right now.

You know what....I think I'm gonna make a lot of changes this year. When I graduate in May I want to take a road trip with my friends and I don't want anyone to bitch at me for going. I'm also going to follow my dreams like my dad always told me to do. He told me don't let anyone stop you from achieving your dreams and I know you have many dreams. I just don't know where or how to start. I'm not smart enough to half the crap I want to do. But I guess I need to believe and try harder. Tonight I believe I'm going to watch Sex In The City or something. I need time alone. Usually I like to go out every night. Well last week I didn't and I was sad all the time, but this week I've been out and about and I feel so tired and I just want to be alone for a while. I'm ready for a change. An extravagant change. I really want to die my hair back dark but everyone says no don't do it and all that horse crap. I just don't know what to do about anything anymore and I'm tired of feeling so lost all the time. This week has been a pretty good week but I just wonder how good things happen to bad people. It really gets to me too.