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Good Morning,

Well nothing new has really happened lately. I haven't been on here in like two days, and things are just still getting worse.

Thursday: I wish I got to go to Bradley's house, but I didn't because I couldn't get out of the house and I was just so depressed. I just kept thinking about bad things. I was so upset about Coach West, and all the things with Marshall and Amy, and plus our neighbor made this thing for Cassie because Cassie is always in the newspaper, and she made like 10 copies of each picture and put them in frames and then she made her this one HUGE frame of Cassie, and you know what? I NEVER get stuff like that. And then I realized I don't do anything good for this town, as much as I would like to, I don't. This is a quote from Cassie, "Becca, why don't you get off your ass and do something for once. And stop being so jealous that I'm in the newspaper, and I get all the attention, and you don't. Your nothing but a jealous bitch and a cry baby. So go pout about it even more." That quote just made me break down. Do I ever hear a "BECCA I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!" No I don't. Do I ever hear "Becca how is school?" Then I answer "Good, I'm passing all my classes." And then Cassie barges in and says "My lowest grade is a 93." Then they say "WOW I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!" and then they give her something. and they say "Becca what's your lowest grade?" "Well it's a 81." "Well Becca you can do better than that."
Yes I know I can, but I can't because I have freaking testing anxiety. I was just a mess Thursday night. And Thank God Jackie helped me out.

Friday: I went over to the neighbors house about 6:00 and stayed until 11:00. It was a lot of fun, but once again I got depressed. It seems like whenever I'm by myself, I get so depressed. And also I'm going to just forgive and forget everyone who hurt me. If your a TRUE friend, you would not tell your friend, that your a whore for having guy friends, and all that. It's not right. So I'm just forgetting about the people who hurt me, and I'm going to start hanging out with new people I guess. Because I can't go through high school being all upset and shit about this friend shit. It's gay.

Today: I'm going to some party with the neighbors and all. And at 3:00 I'm going out on the lake I guess. THEN I'm going to the party. Well thats it for today. Nothing interesting. Exactly one week until I get my license!! Pray that I pass and please pray for Coach West's family. His wife had to go to the hospital the other day because she was so upset.

God Bless,
Becca

Quote of the day: "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

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