Every time I think I'm closer to the heart Of what it means to know just who I am

Hello.

I haven't wrote here in a while.

Last night: I had a movie night and watched Family Stone and Baby Mama. I wish tonight I could go out and do something awesome. I can't believe its Christmas. It doesn't even feel like it. We don't a have any decorations set up or anything. It kinda sucks. But I guess it's because of everything that has been going on lately. Ah life is so confusing. I wish this year was better. But senior sucks. Everyone was like oh yeah its so much fun you don't do anything. Bull crap. You do a crap load of work. I have to admit I've met some amazing people this year though. Like people I would never talk to, I'm friends with them. That's the only good part of this year. My friends pretty much keep me going. I have no idea what I would do without them and I'm really blessed to have them in my life.
I'm really mad right now because my boss told me I had to come in at 1-4 tomorrow and then I was like okay, and then she was like nevermind 5:15-7:45 and i was like okay that's fine too and then she was like wait hold on a minute and she goes come in at 3 until 7:45 and I was like WHAT?!?!?! coaching kids that long is not my thing. I can hardly stand it for an hour. Ah. nothing is going right. I wonder why people tell you that they will do something for you and they've been telling you that for a year and they find all the excuses in the world to avoid doing it. And when the time comes their just like "NO YOUR NOT GETTING IT!" and you've had your hopes up and everything. It depresses me so much. AND NO ONE WANTS TO HANGOUT WITH ME! I ask like 38475894375 people if they wanna see a movie and they either can't or don't want to. I hate being sad. That's all my life is right now is sad. I'm only happy when I'm around my friends. You know what really ticks me off, when I have plans to go to the mall but I break them to do something else with someone else and then they back out. And then I have plans to go to the mall another day and I have to cancel them again to sit at home and do freaking nothing. Ah.

Oprah Winfrey for President


Quote of the day: "My mother buried three husbands, and two of them were just napping."- Rita Rudner