This time our song is playing until the very end.

Do you ever feel like no one at all is listening to you? And you just want to run away. I think I'm gonna go bowling again tonight. And just throw my anger at the ball. Then, I'm gonna buy batteries and play Wii boxing to get all my anger out. I need to clean my room. I'm talking to Billie on Myspace right now. I just realized that I'm really about to graduate. Three weeks from now it's going to be Christmas. Time is really going by fast. There's not a way to stop it either. Scary. This time this year I might be home for Thanksgiving. It just depends on how this whole thing in my life that I'm dealing with works out. J.c. gave me some kind words "Dang. Becca your going through more than any teenage girl should ever go through. Stay strong." I think life would be better if things wouldn't have happened around holiday season. But of course, my mom likes to make me miserable I think. She loves to see me upset because whenever I try to talk to her about whats going on, she just smiles at me. Then Cassie makes smart ass comments. It sucks so bad. I'm trying to get through this Christmas. I don't really care about it either. I'm just about to say shit on the holiday I'm getting nobody nothing. like nobody at all. I used to love Christmas. It's like when I talked to my brother's girlfriend Jessica last night, she said we went through the same thing and thats why she hates Christmas and doesn't spend it with her family. Hmm I don't know what to think. I wanna do something exciting and something exciting for me though.
Blogging gets my emotions out.